One Look is all it Takes

So Much Blood

I went to the hospital after spending some time with the kids and sat by my love and held his hand. I had to be here for him like he is for me. 

It was about a year before we had Autumn I was carrying laundry downstairs and my sock hit a slick spot. I tumbled down the stairs and I fell right on the stomach and hit my face. There were no broken bones or scratches. I was okay.

It was a few weeks later I began to feel pain in my stomach. I tried to lay down but it wouldn't go away. I got up to use the bathroom I locked the door behind me and I fell to my knees.  The pain intensifies I screamed it hurt so bad. The pain started traveling  down my stomach into my hips. the pain was worse and then it was gone.  Blood started spreading on the floor. I screamed when I saw the softball sized ball laying in the pool of blood. Jonathan was banging on  the door in panic he grabbed the key off the top of the door and opened it. He looked down at me in the blood with tears running down my face. I couldn't breathe I was crying too hard. he grabbed some towels and started the bath.  I got my breath back and but I was still in shock as of what happened. He grabbed me by the arms and walked me to the bath.  He sat me down and  I looked into his eyes tears streaming down his face.  He walked over and used towels to clean up the blood he placed the small ball in a little box and sealed with a bow. he walked over and took cup and began to pour it down my back. The warm water felt like my worries running down and back into the water. Then I remembered everything and my world fell apart again.  I pulled my legs to my chest and let the tears fall until they were gone. Jonathan pulled me out of the bathtub and wrapped me in a towel he grabbed soft pajamas and I slipped them on. He picked meep carrying me into our bedroom he laid me on our fresh made bed and pulled the sheets up so I could crawl under. He turned the lights off and went to his side of the bed. He lifted the sheets and crawled under too. I slid closer to him and he wrapped his arm around me. He leaned over closer and kissed my forehead.  

" Heaven got our angel sweetheart it was too perfect to stay here so god took it by the hand." he told me looking to my eyes and kissing me. 

He played with my hair and held me till we both fell asleep. 

I leaned over and pushed his hair across his forehead and planted a kiss just like he had done to me. I sat back down a scooted my chair closer to him. I laid my head in my fists and began talking to him. 

" I love you more than anything, these kids need you I need you. please just fight. I can't lose you these kids can't lose you the world can't lose you. Please fight and pull through baby please." I told him as the tears started streaming down my face.