Lams One Shots

You're a guy

A/N sorry for not uploading for a long time! Writers block and stuff happened. Anyways, alex is trans in this and I would like to thank my friendo glass who helped me with trans stuff because I'm not a trans guy. So thanks glass. And now the story!

John's POV
"Alex? Baby? " I knocked on the bathroom door. "Are you okay? " "Go away, John. " "Alexander, I'm not leaving until you feel better." The door opened. Alex stared at me. "I got my period..." "Oh sweetie, come here." I hugged him tightly. I knew how much it hurt him, he wanted to be a guy so badly, but we couldn't afford testosterone. He fell on his knees and put his head on my lap. "Why can't I be a guy? It isn't fair!" "You're a guy, baby. You're just as much of a guy as I am." "I am?" "Of course you are. Just because you get a period , doesn't mean you're not a guy. You're a guy babe, believe me." I kissed his forehead. "You're my guy, my boyfriend, you're my man. " Tears rolled over Alex's cheeks. "No, im not a man, ill never be a man!" Alex exlaimed, crying a river, "im just a tryhard.." he fell to his knees and put his head to his hands. "Alex..." I hugged him tightly. "You're a guy. You're a guy. I'll keep repeating it over and over and over again if you want me to.I love you Alex, you're my boyfriend, and I love you." "I'm not a guy John! I'll never be one! I'll always be stuck in this female body! I'll always be a girl!" "Alex. Look at me. You're a guy. Female body or not. You're a guy." "I'm not!" He started hitting the floor. "I'll never be a guy!" "Alex, calm down okay? Just try to calm down, please." He sobbed into my chest. "I'll never be a male... You'll leave me because I'm not a guy and you're gay but I can't loose you." "You won't loose me Alexander. You're a guy, okay? You're a male." "I don't know..." "You're a guy. " I kissed his forehead. "Repeat after me. I, Alexander Hamilton, am a guy. " "I , Alexander Hamilton, am a guy..." "Good job babe, see? You're a guy." "Thank you..." "No problem, I'm your boyfriend. It's my job." He kissed me softly. "Alex? Can I ask you something? " "Of course, always." " Well , I actually wanted to do this for a while, and I was planning on doing this next week, but this seems like the right moment." I softly moved his head of my lap and sat down on one knee. "Alexander..." He put his hands in front of his mouth and tears filled his eyes. "Alexander Hamilton , my best friend, my boyfriend , my everything, my entire world, would you do me the honour of becoming my husband? " "Of course, of course John." I picked him up and he put his legs around my waist. I kissed him passionately. "I can't believe we're getting married... what if I'm not a good husband? " "Alex, I just want you. You and only you. That's enough for me. Just be yourself, that's good enough, Alex." "I'm.... You're being serious? " I softly grabbed his chin. "Would I ever lie to you?" "No, you wouldn't." "I'm not lying Alexander, you're enough. You're the only person I want. The only person I need." He connected our lips again. I kissed back and carried him into our bedroom before putting him on our bed and laying down next to him. "I love you Alexander." "I love you too John." I pulled him closer and put my face in his hair. "I'm tired and my stomach hurts." I stood up. "Stay where you are, I'll get you a cup of tea and something for your cramps. " He smiled at me. "Thank you. " "No problem, you can think about the movie you want to watch, I'll take care of everything else." "Harry Potter marathon? " I smiled at him. "Harry Potter marathon."