Wild child-sequel to and then i met andy biersack

chapter 6

I didn't know how to handle the situation so i bought amina as well as my favourite dinner, fish and chips. it had been nearly 4 hours since the fight happened.

Why didn't I just tell her?

how could I be this inconsiderate?

I walked upstairs trying not to make a sound and I could hear her humming along to pierce the veil, I knocked on the door nervously and her humming stopped.

"what do you want" she scowled, from inside her bedroom

I was relieved she even answered.

"umm I made you dinner" I replied, nervously

"I don't want your fucking dinner" she murmured

"its fish and chips" I said 

I took a deep breath when she took the plate of me, her face was still sore from the slap I gave her. I was still mad at the fact that she took drugs and stuff but I was less angry that she did it for me.

"can I come in" I asked

"fine" she sighed annoyed

I sat down in her room, I was so afraid she was going to ask who her father was again but she didn't she just ate her fish and chips while texting.

"sooo umm where did you get it from" I asked messing with my hair

"does it matter" she muttered

"umm as long as you don't take them again" I said, a little annoyed

"yes I promise mummy I wont do it again" she said, childishly

"stop giving me attitude, drugs are a serious matter" I hissed

"yeah well forgive and forget" she groaned

"amina you need to take this seriously" i moaned

"can you just get lost"she said, rolling her eyes

i was going to rage at her again but she might go missing as usual, i stayed in her bedroom probably just to spite her.

"sorry mom about everything" she said beginning to tear up

she put the plate on the floor and leaned towards me and gave me a hug. i felt like we were back on track.

"i know you are" i replied

"i'll go wash up" she said "and i know you bought the fish and chips"

"yeah" i said blushing

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we sat down watching Eastenders cuddling each other, i guess that mother and daughter should do.

"so mom why didn't you tell me"she asked

"listen honey" i replied straightening up" the cancer is GONE"

"there's no reason to worry" i lied

"that's great" she yelled, happily

i felt so bad for lying to her, especially because its a touchy subject. i felt really sick seeing her face light up and i lied to her. how could i lie about being well again.

I only have about a year to live the cancer had spread and amina has no father at the moment. what am i going to do, she needed to go to andy before i get really ill, i had been saying this for hours but its not as easy as it sounds.

it was about 11pm and amina was upstairs getting ready for bed, i practically begged them not to press charges and let her back into school. i had finally come up with a plan how to get andy to look after her. amina's birthday was coming up in about 2 weeks and there was bvb meet and greet on the same day and school was on holiday. the plan was perfect.

i had an urge to start cutting and drinking again, i was never going to see amina again after andy takes her in. well i don't know if he was going to take her in anyway that means she'll go into care. i was a mess, i ran into the kitchen and brought a bottle and a glass in the living room. i drank and drank and drank, it was drowning my sorrows but i was angry at the fact i was going back to my nasty habits.

the cancer, the cutting and the alcohol is ruining my life. it was weird, all i could think about was andy, did i still have feelings for a guy who is rich and famous and who i dated years ago. maybe i was being a crazed fangirl again.

i had no one to support me, i was 22, i was going to die young.