Wild child-sequel to and then i met andy biersack

chapter 5

I finally reached home, still muttering to myself about how I was going to deal with amina. I was going crazy. I went to the kitchen and saw an endless amount of alcohol and a blade. I picked them both up with a glass in the other hand. I relaxed and sat down waiting for amina to come home, seriously doesn't she know I have stuff to do. I couldn't help but thinking about the "C" word. I remembered how cancer ruined my life when mom died, and now It will ruin amina's. I poured my self a drink and I could feel the burning sensation of the alcohol against my tongue. the pleasure of it slipping down my throat made me forget about the cancer for a moment. I put my head in my hands realising what I've done, can some one save me from this person I've become. the blade and the alcohol were my only friends. Tears streamed down my faced as I grabbed my best friend until I heard the locks on the door rattle. I jumped out of my skin as I rushed into the kitchen and put away the bottle and the blade and put the glass in the sink. I returned to the sofa and watched some boring daytime T.V.

"hey mum" amina called out nervously, she walked in her uniform smelling of weed.

"what have I told you about controlling your anger" I hissed, angrily

"im sorry but that stupid cow..."

"and bunking of school and doing drugs isn't going to get you anywhere" I yelled, really heated

"what! what are you talking about" she yelled back

" I saw you when you were supposed to be going to school" I shouted

"well at least I went in didn't I" she hissed

"I don't give a damn tell me why were you doing drugs" I yelled at the top of my voice

"because of you mom because of you" she said her voice lowering

I slapped her hard around her face nearly knocking her to the ground. she was stunned and her big blue eyes filled with tears while she was holding her face and I guess she was still in pain from her piercing.

was I ever this unruly?.

"what the hell you bitch" she screamed, venom dripping with every word "I took the drugs to calm me down, since you never told me you had cancer"

with that she stormed upstairs, what the hell have I done. I was urging for my best friend again but I fought the craving off. I couldn't believe she would have done that because of me I wish I told her. our relationship was falling apart