Well I have been told that I maybe let go ( in a good way for once ) so if I stop on this then I will be gone and back home either doing better or this happens again cause I don't even know how to overdose right. Ugh anyway I just feel like things are gonna feel like hell when I go back out. Cause things were already weird when I was out.. Had a weird moment with a friend and I finally got my phone in here but I had to take the sim card out and there is no wifi anywhere that I can use so R.I.P. But I was able to use my phone to see the recent messages I have been sent and it was mostly about my boyfriend being upset that I am in here and he will have to be loveless. Even tho I am the one in here not able to contact anyone that would make me feel happy and he is free to do whatever. But I guess he should worry about how he feels and forget about me.. That's how it always is and that's how it will be. Nothing ever changes... But it is better knowing that I know that he is okay cause that's all that I care about. Anyway I am just glad that he did not do anything harsh that I know of from this situation. I just wanna leave and go back to the strange life I live instead of living in a lonely rotary home with no one from the outside to talk to. I just wanna hold him tight and know that he is okay and that this situation will resolve. So I don't really know what else to say... But if you are ever in the situation I am in with a rotary home like this.. Run... Wait no don't they will call the cops... Just never get put in a rotary home trust me the food is good but its not worth it. Well I am out.. I am free... And it feels good.
