Bad Influences

Chapter Seven ~ Save her

Lucas' P.O.V.
I froze for a minute when Alyssa said this because she never seemed to be the bitchy type at all. I think shawty got me fucked up and it's only been like a day and half. After what felt like forever I finally spoke up.
"You okay,ma?" I asked quietly. She cocked her head to the side and looked at me through tearful eyes. Damn she too pretty to be crying I thought.
"Why do you care?" She spat she was sad but I could tell there was anger behind it all.
"I...." I was lost for words I didn't know what to say honestly she was the first girl I ever tried to explain myself to. I just pulled her into a hug and she cuffed my chest violently until she finally gave in to it but she didn't hug back she just let me hold her.
We walked close to where Dillyn , Cassie and Imari got up and immediately wanted to know what I did but I just shrugged then off and continued to hold my ba....... I mean Alyssa while she was falling apart. Somehow as I held her there close to my heart she made me want to do better and change my dumb rule about not dating because of my mom.
My mother means the whole world to me and it would kill me to see her go through pain all over again. She was my strong hold you know my glue she kept a young nigga together. I appreciated everything that she did just to make sure I had it all even if it meant selling herself. I hated calling girls/women hoes or bitches it drove me insane to hear men or boys my own age say it. My mom was my queen reguardless and she still is fuck what everybody knew about her.

After what felt like forever she stopped crying and pulled out of the hug. She looked up at me with blood shot eyes both from crying and smoking. I could tell that whatever made her cry was serious because her tears weren't pretty they were raw tears just ugly.

"You prolly think I'm weird now,huh?!" She said with a raspy voice.
"Nah ma everybody gotta cry even baddies." I joked to her but I was serious.
"Could we go somewhere?" She asked walking towards Cassie who was busy sucking off Imari's face.
"I'm busy ma." Cassie groaned:
"Notchu fool I was talking to Lucas." She smirked in my direction. Cassie put her hands up in defeat and I took her by the hand and she lead the way.

We walked not too far from where we were chilling out but the noise of the group was faint or nonexistent in a sense. She looked at me and hopped on a table that looked like it'd been banged up and brought back to life.

"Wassup ma? Why we out here?" I asked with my voice and my eyebrows.
"Cause I think I can trust you. Can I?" She looked dead ass right now there was no way I could let her down.
"Yeah,go on I gotchu" I was being as sincere as I could right now.

She breathed out slowly and said the following to me: "I'm what you think I am Lucas. A few years ago I'd been with Dillyn he was my everything back then but we messed up..... I got pregnant and he was really happy. But... my mama didn't like him or the thought of her daughter having a baby at 16 and especially by Dillyn. She made me.... have an abortion and told me not to tell anyone that I was ever pregnant. I couldn't bare the thought of having to tell him so I lied I told him that I lost the baby when I fell in the bathtub. It just made things worst Dillyn blamed me and said that I was selfish but there was nothing I could do. My mother and I barely speak now but it's not like she ever did she was always working or trying to keep my father from me I don't know who the hell does that. But the thing that hurt me the most was Dillyn and I's relationship how we went from talking everyday to not having anything to do with me.That's why I was crying I just reminisced on the past two years and got all messed up in my feelings that's all."
It was real deep I felt for shawty and then she started crying again. I pulled into my chest again and she buried herself in me as if she was trying to disappear there.