How To Be A Wolf (Zarry)

maybe you should go home

He can feel it coming up to his throat it would be coming out if his mouth any minute now he leans over the toilet and let's it out he throws up until he can feel his stomach squeezing it self yet he still finds himself dry heaving the pain he can't stand it he can't stand the pain he is tired tired why wouldn't destiny take him to just the way it took Zayn is this his destiny to suffer for eternity without his mate Harry raises the knife towards his stomach hearing his own heart beat in his ears he just wants it to be over but instead as he sticks it to his stomach it heals back making him want to scream he has no idea on what is happening he just wants it to stop he is tired he just wants to go far away from everyone.

"Harry what are you doing"a voice yells making Harry lose a grip on the knife

"Harry what the hell are you thinking" the voice asks again and Harry can hear it the panic the pain but he couldn't stare at them in their eyes or he would break but he breaks down anyway he isn't even an alpha anymore so what's there to lose he pulled Kendall in for a hug and sobs into her neck while she let's her bag hit the ground as she hugs him back and tighter rubbing his back soothingly until his cries turned into sniffles soon it was silent Harry pulls away wiping at his cheeks before smiling at her as if nothing happened but she could see it the tears gathering again.

"harry"she mutters but the boy moves away from her touch

"Harry you can talk to me about anything is this about your family "Kendall asks and she can see it the immediate change in his posture his face displaying so many emotions all at once but still his lips never saying a word making Kendall Lenoir a sigh

"is this about them if you miss them
So much then maybe you should go home"0kenfall suggests making Harry eyebrows furrow as he scrunched up his nose in disagreement

Wow if you wanted me to move out of your flat you should have just said that"hatry says for the first time since Kendall started to talk to him even though what he said was supposed to be funny Kendall couldn't find it in hear self to laugh.

"oh ypu know I didn't mean it like that Harry I like having a housemate around but something is bothering you something you don't want to share with me I think you would do better over there"

"kendall I have already told you what happened "

"Harry I can see it in your eyes I can see that its way more than that"

"kendall"

"no I'm not hearing it I'm pulling out our savings and booking you a flight back to England is it"kendall states

"I can't I can't go"harry states as if trying to tell himself not kendall making her furrow her brows she can see it the way his eyes is darting towards the map in their room

"you want to go so what's stopping you"kendall asks making Harry mouth fall open as he tries to find the words to say to her how is he supposed to tell her that he can't go back because he might have killed someone then she wouldn't want to room with a murderer

"forget it I can't go "Harry says walking out of the bathroom and into the bedroom but the tall girl was trailing behind him he can sense her movement something he picked up from alpha school

"Harry"she complain

"forget it"harry states sternly his voice leaving no space for agreement but Kendall is not a wolf that wouldn't work on her

"I can't forget it I just I want to see you happy"kendall argues making Harry let out a long groan as he slids down the door he just can't escape now can he

"harry"he hears a voice say as the movement was heard next to him

"they hate me I can't go"harry confesses he hasn't being able to talk about it heavyset it hurt to know that the people you loved as a family hates you

"but until you tell me what you are really doing here from what I have gathered it is not because you ran away because your sexuality like you first told me then tell me the truth what is it what happened"Kendall asks softly but all she gets is silence again how is this supposed to work out how is she supposed to help if Harry isn't talking she let's out a sigh.

"okay then I guess you can't stay here anymore Harry"kendall states out of the blue making Harry's eyes widen he states at her in disbelief

"your going to throw me out"harry asks in disbelief

"yes i'm sorry I can't stay with you if you don't want to tell me anything "Kendall states making Harry stare at her in disbelief before storming into his room grabbing his duffle bag filling them with cloths

"really all you have to do is tell me Harry"kendall states hoping the boy would break and tell her she isn't one who likes secrets she let's out a sigh seeing Harry wasn't ready to talk

"here is the money you can get a ticket and g-"Kendall starts to say but Harry is cutting her off

"I don't need it or anything from you thank you for your care Kendall"Harry states his voice so cold it sent shivers up Kendall's back before opening the door and walking out of the apartment wondering what his life was turning into he just lost his friend but so long after he lost his brother He doesn't know how to feel at the moment he can feel his heart closing in like asthma but he knows it is anything but it he thinks it's heartbreak and for some weird reason it keeps on getting worst and worst as his eyes filled with tears he rested his back against the wall breathing heavily trying to make his lungs to find space to come up for air ambit something blocked it he felt it something rushing up his throat he falls into his knees letting it all out until he could feel his insides squeezes he can still feel himself dry heaving but nothing comes out he can't stop it the tears rushing down his cheeks he let's out a scream as he grabs into a handful of his hair screaming and crying why is his life so fucked up he can't stand it he can't stand the pain anymore he is tired tired why wouldn't destiny take him to just the way it took Zayn is this his destiny to suffer for eternity he just wants it to stop he is tired he just wants to go far away from everyone while behind him a girl wipes her cheeks and smiles hoping the boy would go home just like she hoped her plan would make him do.