Is It To Late?

My miserable Love Life

I see you walking down the hall.
With her.
Holding her hand.
Gazing at her like she's the fairest of the land.
Even though I vowed to let you go.
My heartbreak always begins to show.
And though I'll never let you know.
I really wish you would leave that hoe.

Yes its rude to call her that.
Because she didnt do anything.
But she has you.
And for awhile, all I wanted to do
Was have you.

She has you and it still hurts.
Seeing you two so happy.
Yet its ironic
How I ended up in this
Considering all I ever do
Is try to make people smile.
Happy.
Carefree.
I do it to everyone I care about.
And I cared for you much more.
So why couldn't I be happy for you?

You.
Yea You.
The new guy my heart desired.
You'll never know I started to like you.
You'll never know I realized that sometimes.
You never know a good thing.
Until you lose it.
That saying is true.
And so were my feelings for you.
Though I still love a guy who never noticed.
You seemed to make me happy.

Now there you go down the hall.
Holding your new girlfriends hand.
My friends say ya'll dont look good together.
Did you know that?
Everyone wanted you to be with me.
Did you know that?
I denied it at first.
I didnt realize that you wouldn't be the worst.
Instead you became a piece of my curse.
My miserable love life.

And you.
The other guy.
Who I liked for such a short amount of time.
I wouldn't even pay you a dime.
Yes you were funny.
And made me flutter inside.
I realized very quickly that you weren't gonna ride.
The girl you once called your sister
Seemed to be your new kinkster.
Everyone wants y'all to be together.
It kinda hurts seeing you too.
Because the girl you are with is my friend.
And she is very happy.
Do I stop it?
Can I stop it?
I find myself inferior.
Because of my broken interior.
I dont have the looks.
I'm barely funny.
I'm loud and rowdy.
And then get mad and pouty.
I guess you weren't worth it.
So I keep telling my shattering heart.

And finally to you.
The boy I play with.
Who is unimaginably cute to me.
Especially your smile.
I ask you.
Why did you chose me?
Me to mess with and laugh with.
Why me?
How can someone so cute
Find me alluring?
Me of all people.
I didnt really know what it means.
And yet I knew it wasnt as it seemed.
Now you have a girl too.
I knew it was too good to be true.

All of these guys.
Circle around my heart.
Engulfing my thoughts.
Invading my mind.
Yet they are the pieces to my shattered frame.
My miserable love life.
Will never be the same.