I see so many people around me that are so happy and it just looks so easy but when I try to just "be happy" it never works and it instead just makes me sad. Happiness is in your blood you have to be born with the happiness that will linger into the rest of your life you can't just wake up one day and decide to be happy like it's a switch you can turn on and off. We all wish it is that easy but it's not. Somehow everything hurts at once yet I am completely numb.
