Dying to Be Thin

Day Four

It was 5:00 in the morning. Instead of being early I took a short run around the neighborhood. I smiled as thoughts went through my head, ranging from the horse I just got and Jonah to my homework and what I was going to binge on later. I got back to my house and took a nice, long warm shower then headed off to school. Upon arriving, I walked into my class and remembered today was the day I said I'd go swimming with Jonah and one of my riding friends, Tasha. To be completely honest, I kind of had a crush on her. Kind of was an understatement. I had a huge crush on her. And she knew it too. But of course we just pretended everything was completely normal about us. Speaking of which, guess who forgot a pencil? Yeah, me. I walked up to the teacher and grabbed a pencil and sat back down. Before I knew it, it was lunch time. I ate half a sandwich and managed to keep it in my system. P.E. was next. A wave of guilt had come over me so I was glad P.E. was after lunch. I worked hard at PhysEd then moved onto English class. Bleh. At least a few people I liked were in that class. School let out. I made a beeline for my car and headed home to drop off my stuff and grab my swim gear. "Hey girl!" Tasha yelled. "Mikayla told me you decided to buy King, that's sooo awesome!" I smiled and nodded. "It is, I really like him. He can definately jump. I'm gonna go get changed, see you," I paid for entry then got changed. Before heading out, I looked in the mirror. A little fat here and there, but my hips and ribs showed, so I guess not too fat. I walked out. "Hey cutie, you finally made it," Jonah stood outside the dressing room. Grabbing my hips, he pulled my into a hug. "Get a room," Tasha teased as she walked out. We headed towards the main pool area and jumped in. An hour went by as we goofed off. "Time for pizza?" I ask as the clock hits 5:30. Everyone nodded before splitting up for the showers. We meet outside the bathrooms and decide on a pizza place. We decide on Pieology. After arriving, we ordered pizzas and sat down. We caught up on each others lives and gossip before bidding farewells. Jonah, however, stayed after Tasha left. "I'm coming over tonight," he announced. I nodded in agreement then left. I drove home quietly and wondered why he wanted to stay over. Did he wants sex? Or just being friendly? Or something totally different? Who knows. I get home and push everything into the closet and close the door. At least it's kinda clean. Oh well. I stared at my measly twin sized bed that was pushed against the wall. How the hell were two people supposed to fit on that? I hear a knock on my door. Jonah just stood there before walking in. "Your, uhh, dad. He has a, umm, bottle of vodka? That's almost empty. Is that.....normal?" Jonah asked. I nod. "Oh, ok," he said simply. He sat on my bed. "Do you, uhhh..want to umm," he takes a long pause.
"If you want sex just ask for it, geezzz. Stop looking like an idiot who doesn't know english," I say jokingly.
"Ok. Do you want to go get ice cream?" He raises an eyebrow.
"Seriously? What took you so long to ask the question. Anyhow, yes, ice cream sounds fine." I reply sarcastically. We walk past my knocked-out dad and out Jonah's car. I hop in. He starts the car and heads towards the ice cream place. I look up from my phone as we get onto the freeway. My legs try to squeeze themselves together but I guess I was too skinny for that to happen. And Jonah obviously knew that, because he just smirked as he squeezed the inside of my thigh.  I jokingly slapped his hand before continuing to text people.  We arrive to our destination and order a large cone to share, then sat outside. "I'm concerned for you," Jonah started. "You're decently thin, enough to make me think you're probably underweight."
"And?" I raise an eyebrow.
"You skip meals so often before eating large amount of food. And then using the bathroom for the next 10 minutes. So yeah, you starve, you binge, and correct me if I'm wrong, but you purge too."
I gave him a surprised look. "Umm, yeah. You're right."
"So, uhhh, just thought I'd stay the night mainly so I can make sure you don't harm yourself. Or purge," he added.
"Mainly? And yes, thanks for caring. It's nice to know someone notices."
"Welcome. Mainly meaning, I had a few other things in mind."
I just stared at him, trying to figure out what other thoughts he had.
"And yes, I did think about the sex part of staying over." He gave me goofy look. Guess i had figured it out. We finished up the ice cream, and unfortunately I had eaten most of it. But fuck me, because I couldn't purge it. Oh well. We got back to my house. I change clothes and flop onto my bed. "I like it," Jonah commented as I walked out of the bathroom. Long shirt, underwear. That's normal. He just took his shirt off and flopped down next to me. "Goodnight," I say turning my back to him. He gently finger-brushed my hair behind my ear before he kissed my neck. Softly at first, then nibbles, then a soft bite and suck. Kill me now, I thought. First off I'm gonna gain a ton from not purging, then now I have a damn hickey. Wow. Good going me. I fell into a deep sleep a few minutes later.