lucy is v ignorant and annoying
im on my period yet she thinks shes the one with problems
my cramps are worse than usual
same for my bleeding
and my headaches (which she keeps making worse)
and my hormones and emotions are past hell but i keep trying to be nice but the second i mildly retaliate to her being an asshole im the stupid jerky asswipe
so thats fun
and my parents keep fighting and dads coming home soon and he doesnt understand periods either so i have to make sure everything is perfect before he gets home cuz last time earlier this period on day one (when the cramps were worse than ever) i had accidentally left a wrapper or something next to me
and when i was literally paralyzed in pain he saw it and yelled at me to pick it up and a rewind a couple minutes before that i was finally in a position on the recliner where i wouldnt feel like death and i had some pillows to crop my feet up on the recliner cuz that helps
and he shoved the recliner down harshly and way to quickly, yelled at me for the cats having played with the folded clothes near the recliner assuming it was my fault and yelled at me when i had to run to the bathroom cuz of the cramps and recliner
but i literally immediately was cramping again and bleeding and i was holding back throwup that was fun then later after my mom explained i was on my period he went out and got some groceries
and one of those heavy ass chocolate bars and i was in another cramp position
and i didnt see him and he threw it at me and my arm still hurt
oh also he ran out on my mom saying he was gonna kill himself for whatever stupid reason yet when we have real mental problems we get yelled at all i fuckin wanted this week was to have a light period that wouldnt bother me much and to learn some chords on my ukulele is that so hard huh
oh yeah and theres a whole nother thing involving my cousin emily but im not even gonna start on that
for now at least
