The way I feel

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Erika's pov
I was in my room but I couldn't sleep. I kept having dreams about what if I hadn't met Jake and where my life would be if I didn't go to that business launch for TEAMDOM.I laid in my bed scrolling through pictures of Jake and I...

I laid in my bed scrolling through pictures of Jake and I

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The more I looked at them the more the word 'Why' Went through my head I was going to cry even more when there was a knock at the door...
E-go away
I said in an extremely shaky voice
T- Erika please,I need to talk to you
I wiped away my tears at the sound of Tessa's voice as I forced myself out of bed to go and answer the door.

Tessa's pov
As Erika opened the door I couldn't help but notice her puffy red eyes,runny nose and messed up make up but then again I can't say looked much better. I've been crying about Emilio and Erika's kiss for the past 45 minutes.I could also hear Jake yelling at himself in his room since we had a hole through the wall that separated the two of us, so I decided to put a sock in the hole, it killed me seeing my best friend kiss my boyfriend so I had to come and ask Erika why she did it. I would find Ivan and ask him for help but Ivan ,Meg, Chance, Anthony and Nick all went to the insane asylum for Chance and Anthony's new video.

T- can I come in. Please?
At fist there was no response as she just stared at her feet but after a while she began sobbing.
E- Tessa I'm sorry for being such a bad friend...
T- Rik your not a bad friend
E- yes I am. I can't just go around kissing people's boyfriends
T- I know, but it's ok.
E- Thanks
I motioned for her to take a seat as I locked the door. We both sat at the end of the bed and hugged as we cried in each other's shoulders until Erika spoke up
E-T?
T- yes?
E- why do I have to ruin every relationship I'm involved in?
T- Rik, that's not true
E- Isn't it? I mean three years ago I thought my boyfriend was cheating on me so I yelled at him then I found out that he was just trying to plan my surprise party.Then Noah dumped me and I stil, don't know why. Then I did something wrong,now Grover probably hates me and so do Violet and Carmyn.Then I yell at Jake without giving him a chance to explain why he was kissimg that other girl,while at the same time I go kissing my best friend's boyfriend...
She says trying not to tear up
T- Erika do you realize that all of those were just a lack of communication?
E- I guess your right but that doesn't change the fact that I kissed your boyfriend,and now the two guys I care about most probably hate ,my guts.
T-but doesn't mean you can't fix those relationships.
E- your right but first,I have to fix yours and Emilio's
T-ok...but your doing all the talking
Erika chuckled a little as we made our way to Erika's bathroom to freshen up and wash our faces with something that isn't tears.

Jakes pov
I'm such an idiot. I just ruined my chances with the perfect girl. The words 'tell me how you feel' kept running through my head along with the image of Erika kissing Ivan. I knew it wasn't Emilio because Emilio went to the insane asylum with the rest of the gang.All that crying made me thirsty so I headed to the kitchen to get myself a drink, hoping I would run into Erika so we could talk things out.

Erika's pov
Tessa and I were going to find Emilio and ask him why he let me kiss him when Tessa spoke...
T- Hold on I think I left my phone in your room
I just nodded as she ran back to my room in search of her phone so I decided to get a drink of water. Once I reached the kitchen I heard someone coming down the stairs.I turned around to see him standing there.Jake.He was standing there.Just watching me. I tried to run out of the kitchen but he grabbed my arm and stopped me.I yelled for him to let go but he just stood there looking at me as I stared into his hazel eyes.Man those eyes be the death of me. I sighed and calmed down as he let go of my arm
E- What do you want
J-We need to talk,we live in the same god damn house  so we're gonna have to talk at some point
E- I know... I just...I don't know if I'm ready...I'll probably just screw it up again...
I said as I started to tear up, but I didn't want him him to know so I quickly looked down at my feet
J- Erika
E-yea
I said with my head still down
J- I love you
He said lifting my head up gently by my chin
E- what did you say
I said calmly 
J- I...I...I said I love you
E- Jake,I...I...
J- I knew you didn't feel the same but I just thought I should tell y....
I cut Jake off by kissing him aggressively, he kissed back almost immediately,I pulled away
E- What I was going to say was..I love you too
We both leaned back in and kissed, the kiss felt amazing, much like the one I had felt back in the hospital but this time it felt like we were the last two people on earth. We pulled away after our lingering kiss and as I put my head on Jakes shoulder he put his head on mine while he wrapped his arms around my waist as I did the same,he kissed the top of my head as we swayed to the song we were both humming as I slowly drifted off to sleep on his shoulder....

Hey guys hope you liked the chapter! I worked hard to get this chapter done all day since I had no idea what to write about.Its Night time where I live and I'm supposed to be going to bed yet I'm writing this. I know I said I'd be posting twice every Monday but I haven't even started chapter 20 yet cause I have no ideas on what to write so you guys get to pick out of these  options so I can't write a chapter and post it tomorrow.
1.Jake and Erika go on a date
2.Erika leads Jake on to thinks she gonna make  a move on him so many times but she doesn't
3.Noah comes back
4- Carmyn comes over to hang out with Tessa and Erika but she continuously flirts with Jake

ILY
BYE

-Violet 

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