Unsteady » Stiles Stilinski

Prologue//Playlist

❝ This is when the feeling sinks in,
I don't wanna miss you like this. . . ❞

The past couple of months have been amazing. We finished sophomore year in relative peace before having a pretty decent summer before junior year begins. Stiles and I had sadly been getting cockblocked by Scott this entire summer; I normally would be pissed and tell him to bug off but I felt bad for Scott. Him and Allison broke up after everything that went down, and a part of me is still pissed she turned on us but I felt more bad for Scott. He loves her still, it's obvious to anyone with eyes. 

So to keep himself distracted, he has been coming along with anything Stiles and I do. I don't mind, sometimes it's nice having Scott drive while I can sit back and enjoy the scene outside the window passing us by. Plus, I'm Scott's best friend as well, I can't abandon him when he needs me. So, I offer my girl advice and input while also trying to find some manly way for him to deal with his heartbreak pain. Sometimes he'll even come with me and Lydia to the spa, well that one time. I know he enjoyed it even if he denies it. And then there was the other effective time where he came along with my date with Stiles and my father to the gun range. 

After all the crazy that's been going on in our lives, both my father and Stiles father with Scott's mother agreed that we should all learn to defend ourselves. And that meant how to properly handle a fire weapon. After everything that happened, dad and I were as close as ever. We even took a five day trip to Scotland, to visit the place where him and mom went and to get some family bonding time in. 

We just got back today, which seems like an eternity for me to be away from Stiles. I wanted nothing more than to attack him with kisses and just cuddle up to a good movie. It seemed like forever since the last time we could properly get some alone time. Which is why he suggested we revive an old tradition we once had that only lasted for five years. 

Every summer before school, before summer ended and school began, we would go camping. Just a day or two, rehashing what the year had been like before saying what we hoped the new year would be. And when Stiles suggested we take a romantic camping trip and or hike, I jumped at the chance. Dad said it was okay that we went the two of us, but he did give me the very awkward sex talk. 

Oh god, I wanted to throw up in that instant but dad trusted me to not do anything stupid. And he threatened Stiles plenty of times that if he hurt me, they'd never find his body and if he got me pregnant that he'd threaten him with an arrow to the face. Yeah, that was one of the most awkward conversations ever,  don't wanna have another one any time soon. 

But as much as I couldn't wait to get started on my romantic camping trip with Stiles, wanting to cuddle by the fire underneath the starlight... there was something I needed to do first. 

I held a bouquet of flowers in my hands, glancing up at my dad's face to see the sadden look on it. I took a deep breath, slowly approaching the headstone, placing the flowers before it. I placed a kiss on the headstone, standing back up to be beside my father. 

"Seems like just yesterday we lost her..." I whispered, staring at my mother's name on the headstone. 

"She's not gone forever..We'll see her again." Dad said, trying to not sound as sad for my benefit but there wasn't any point. I knew that he was torn up about it, today being the anniversary of my mother's "Death". Even if he had confined in me that she wasn't "dead" in the biblical sense... she was still gone. I know he misses and loves her every single day, and that he wished she was here with us because I do too. 

But I also know he tries to be strong for me. 

"I know they say time heals most wounds but-..It still hurts like yesterday." I whispered, feeling my dad grab my hand in his. 

"I know sweetheart but your mother would be proud of you, of us. She'd want us to be happy, to move forward." Dad reminded me as I just took a deep breath, nodding in agreement. "Come on, we still need to stop by the store to get you some bug spray before you leave for camping." 

I laughed, putting my hand on mom's headstone while staring at it. "Miss you everyday, mom. I'll visit soon." I said before turning back to my dad, who had a small smile on his face. "Come on, we better get going before I start crying and then you and it turns into a sob fest." I half joked while the two of us walked away.

This was usually how it went on my mom's anniversary; we'd come visit, leave flowers, then we'd remember the good times, the good memories. Dad would tell me the story of how they met, how he loved her and it was basically amazing. To me, my parents were soulmates and they had an epic love story. And this year, it seemed different, better even because I finally knew the truth. 

But as I walked away from the graveyard that moment, it was like a weight on my chest. It was the feeling I got when, according to my dad and my mother's journals that he gifted me when he began training me more and helping me understand my Valkyrie gifts, I was feeling connected or would predict a death. Because since Valkyries are one of the omens connected to death, I feel it. I can predict it and it scared the shit out of me. I hadn't gotten one in a long time, not since the night Gerard forced Derek to bite him and everything with Jackson went down. 

I groaned slightly, dad asking me if I was okay. I nodded my head, lying and saying it was just cold out before looking over my shoulder to stare at mom's grave. I couldn't shake this feeling something bad was going to happen but I didn't want to let that stop me from doing things. I didn't want to let the fear of death stop me from living. So I just pushed those thoughts and feelings aside, trying to focus on my romantic camping trip with Stiles which we both desperately needed. 

But as I walked away, it still sat in the back of my mind that something horrible was coming our way, and that we might not all walk away this time.....

playlist:

Unsteady//X Ambassadors

❝Hold onto me,
Cause I'm a little Unsteady❞

Saturn//Sleeping At Last

❝ You taught me the courage of stars,
Before you left ❞

❝Light carries on endlessly,
even after death ❞

Til My Heart Stops//Too Far Moon

❝ I almost died,
the day I lost you ❞

Bleeding Out//Imagine Dragons

❝ Cause I'm bleeding out for you ❞

See You Again//Wiz Khalifa

❝ I'll tell you all about it when I see you again ❞

Hello//Adele

❝ They say times supposed to heal ya,
but I ain't done much healing ❞

Stay With Me//Sam Smith

❝ Oh, won't you stay with me,
cause you're all I need ❞

Whispers//Dave Baxtor

❝ Our love will be legend ❞

My Love//Sia

❝ I know in peace you'll go,
I hope relief is yours ❞

This Love//Taylor Swift

❝ This love is good, this love is bad

This Love is alive back from the dead ❞