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Chapter 6 {My little angel}

Craig's P.O.V.

It's been 2 weeks since that incident with Tweek.
His funeral should take place next week.
I recalled my memories on this particular day.

"Tweek!", I yelled, but with no use, because he was still falling.
And falling.

I failed at grabbing his hand.
I failed at saving his life.

And I was the reason, he was attempting suicide in the first place.
When he was about to jump into my arms, this bitch just shot him.
He stumbled and fell to death.

Annie.

I nearly choked her to death, haha.

After looking down at that building, I remember, I saw Tweek, dead and completely broken.
Every bone, every inch of his body was destroyed.
His mother fell onto her knees and sobbed, and sobbed, and sobbed.
His father hugged his mother, but they were both dragged down into the deep pit of depression.

"T-Tweek?", is what Kyle said.
"Did that really just.. Happen?!", is what Stan said.
"Fuck! Tweek, are you alive?!", is what Clyde said.
"Oh god.. I think.. I think, I'm going to throw up..", is what Token said.
"Pinch me", is what Cartman said.
"I-impossible!", is what Jimmy said.

"Tweek.. I'm so sorry.."

..

Is what I said.

Was I ready for that funeral?
No.
I wasn't ready to face his parents, nor was I ready to handle all the pat on the backs and the "I'm so sorry about your boyfriend, dude.. Wait, you rejected him, lol" would be the worst part.
Did I wanted to go?
Not sure.
I do care about him and the funeral is an important thing, but I would just ruin it, by weeping while everyone has a minute of silence.
I wanted to read my speech though.

"Tweek Tweak.
The only person in my life, who really understood me.
Who was always next to me and cared for me like nobody else did.
I hurt him badly and was dense about his feelings.
And now, that he's gone, there's a huge part in my heart and life, that's missing.
Everyday is the same without him.
The joy, happiness, all left, when he did.
I hate myself for not saving him and telling him, how sorry I am, before he went to heaven.
That one last thing, I didn't get to say, before his eyes lost color.
That one sentence, I hated myself for not saying.
That one sentence, that brought him to death, because I was too stupid and pathetic to say.

Tweek Tweak, I love you.
As a friend, a partner and a person.

And after you lost life, I realized that?
I don't know how I can ever apologize to you, your family and dear friends.
I'm sorry, I just now realized, how much you mean to me.

Again, I cried while reading it.
You could still see the wet parts from last time.
I did a good job, huh.

And though he was gone now, I could still feel his presence and him, watching over me.
Would he ever forgive me for taking his life?
The Tweek I know, would say, it wasn't my fault, right?
I closed my eyes and smiled to myself as I felt the protection and care of Tweek around me.

I also always asked myself, what would have happened, if I had jumped with him.
Could I have been fast enough to grab him and rescue him from death?
Or would we have died together?
Both of the answers didn't sound too bad.
Again, I regret every choice I made there and sighed.

Then, someone knocked on our front door.
My parents opened and I just put my headphones on as soon as I heard some adult conversations.
It was Tweek's favorite song.

"Falling in love at a coffee shop"
(You should listen to that, I think it fits Tweek and Craig pretty well :D)

I think that possibly, maybe I'm falling for you..
Yes, there's a chance that I've fallen quite hard over you..
I've seen the waters, that make your eyes shine,
now I'm shining too..

Because, oh, because, I've fallen quite hard over you..

Again, all little tear fell from my eye, and I quickly wiped it off, when a knock came from my door.

"Yeah?", I said, while my voice cracked from crying.
The door opened and Tweek's parents came in. They both had gigantic eye bags and Richard had a gift I'm his hand.
"Hello, Craig. It is nice to see you. I know, it's been hard for you, so we wanted to give you something, that was very important to Tweek, but I'm sure, he wanted to give it to you. Also, there is a note in there. I'm not sure, if it's for you though!"

Then he gave me the present and they both waved me goodbye, because I could thank them.

I looked at it and asked myself, if I was ready to open it.
After 10 minutes, I decided to open it.
It was a little coffee cup in blue.
Some yellow dots on it.. Just like my hat..
I turned it around and a note plopped on my knees.

Craig?
Craig, will you ever read this?
If it is actually you, Craig, then I probably gave this cup to you myself! It reminded me of you, when I first saw it.
It has the colors, just like your hat.
Also, if you read this, I confessed to you already, didn't I?
I hope you said yes!
Anyway, this cup is my favorite, since it always reminded me of you and your warmth.
How about you read the bottom of the cup?

I realized, there was something written on the bottom that said..

I will always love you, Craig Tucker.

I placed the cup next to me and cuddled myself into my blanket.
One tear after another my day went by, till the sun rose again.

But I knew, Tweek was still watching me, protecting me, loving me.

Because he is and always was my little angel.