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Chapter 4 {Unbearable hate}

Craig's P.O.V.

"Tweek.."
He quickly turned around and screamed:"GAH!"
I sighed. This was the Tweek, I knew.
"Calm down, it's me."
He calmed down and smiled at me.
After a long pause, he coughed awkwardly.
"W-why did you w-want t-to talk t-to me?"
"What was wrong with you, why did you act that way in the bathroom at school?", I asked.
There was silence. I think, he kinda thought about what he should say.
"I.. I j-just had a p-panic attack.. N-nothing s-special.."
"You cried your eyes out!"
I had the feeling, he would cry any second now, so I decided to break the silence once again.
"Is it because we broke up or what?"
"Huh?! W-why would that be t-the problem?! W-why would you.. You think that?! I'm fine without you in my life!"
My eyes widened. He would be fine without me? I wasn't needed? Not even as a friend?
..
He was so ungrateful.
I helped him in his worst times!
I went to his house at 3 a.m.!
I had to deal with his weird panic attacks!
I had to get used to his damn twitches!
He never did a thing for me.
I was the support in life, he needed, but he just used me.
He did never have anything in return.
He never repayed me.
I was sick of this.

"You are fine without me? Yeah, we'll See about that, weirdo", I said and left.
As I walked away, I could hear him whisper my name and sobbing, but I decided, to not turn back.

Tweek's P.O.V.

After him leaving me alone in this dark, black night, I hated myself more than ever.
Why did I say such bullshit?
I could never live without him.
He's gone.
Is it, because I wanted to show him, that I was strong?
It doesn't matter anyway, he left already.
I was alone again.
I also imagined how he'd react, when he would see me.. Ending my life.
Now, without Craig, I didn't even had a reason to live anymore.
I hated myself.
With every panic attack, every twitch, every sip of my coffee, the hatred for myself grew bigger and bigger.
"Weirdo" is what he called me.
Is that, what he thought of me the whole time?

I stood up, wiped the tears out of my face and stared at the reflection of me, in the water on Stark's Pond.
Yeah, I really was weird.
A coffee-addicted, twitchy spaz, with hair, that looked like it was sucked up in a tornado.
After realizing, what I was, I hated myself even more.

| A few days later |

It was Sunday, I quickly put my clothes on, got myself a cup of coffee and went to Craig's house. I knew, it was wrong, to "stalk" him, but I couldn't help myself.. I wanted to know how he was doing without me. Probably better.
I knew, there was a tree, leading to his room, since I often sneaked in his room at night before.
I climbed it and prayed for him not to look at his window at this moment.
Somehow, I saw a little bit of blonde hair.
Bebe? No.
Ah, it was curly, short hair.
Annie.

She was making out with Craig and they kissed intensely.
My heart felt like it just got stabbed thirty times, but I just took a deep breath.
I also thought to myself, how much of a creep I was, looking at my ex-bestfriend making out with a girl, while sitting on a tree and staring into his window..
Then I noticed, she was now taking off her shirt and you could see her white, lame bra.
They made out more, till she then sat on his lap and took a glance out of the window.
Fuck.
She screamed, holding her arms over her boobs and pointed at me.
Since the window was closed I could not hear the screams as loud, but I believed, Craig now was deaf.
I thought of a solution, to not look like a total creep and Craig not noticing me.
I got nervous and didn't know what to do so I did the first thing, that was somehow the only thing possible..

I jumped off that tree.
It was pretty high, you know.
Ah, who cared, if I broke my neck here.
I wanted to die of embarrassment anyway..
"ARGH.. FUCK!", I screamed, when I landed.
I needed to escape, before he came out and saw me. Well, Annie was going to tell him anyway, but personally seeing him right now wasn't my plan at all..
I ran and bumped against Craig, while trying to escape his garden.
My eyes widened.. I was shocked and embarrassed.
My head became extremely red and I avoided his glance.

Run for it?
Punch him unconscious, haha?
Tell him, I was wrong and missed him?
There were so many possibilities, but I knew, only one was right.

"Craig..", I began, "I.."
"Hah.. You're so pathetic", he said, "you just can't live without me. You used me all along, I was nothing but a puppet to you. And now, you come crawling back, thinking, I'd fall for that again? Well, you thought wrong, I don't need you. I can't understand, why I even liked you, you're so damn weird."
He smirked.
"Craig.. T-that's not it-!"
His smirk quickly disappeared and it turned into an angry expression.
"I'd love to see you break, Tweek."
I suddenly became sad. This wasn't the Craig I knew..
I began to tell myself, that my beloved Craig was standing in front of me and that I still had to tell him something, I kept in all along.
He hated me now, so I might as well tell him.
He couldn't hate me any more.

"Craig."
My stuttering wasn't there. I was dead serious.
"I have to tell you something.. All along, I..
I loved you and I still do! You're right, I can't do anything without you. I miss you. Please, come back! I never used you.."
I didn't dare to look in his face, but I took a deep breath and stared at his face.

There was a disgusted expression glued to his face.