I wake up to movement next to me. I open my eyes and squint because of the sun. Anthony was the one moving. "How did I get in here?" I asked him. He opened his eyes. "You came in here last night. Drunk." He said. I smile. "I did didn't I." I sad. He smiles. I have a huge headache and feel like I'm going to throw up so I go in their bathroom and throw up. When I'm done, I sit back on the bed. "You need some food. Let's go downstairs and get you some." Anthony said. I look in the mirror real quick and my mascara is all smudged and my half is all messy but I don't get. Who am I trying to impress? Anthony is holding my arm and leading me to the kitchen as we walk down the stairs. Jake and his mom are in there, cooking. "Good morning. What's wrong?" Pam asked. I just rub my eyes and don't say anything. I can barley see from the sunlight. "She's just sick." Anthony said. Jake made a bull shit sound with his mouth. I look at him as Anthony leads me to the kitchen chair. "Well here. Eat." Pam said putting a plate of bacon in front of me. "Thanks." I said tiredly. She smiles. "Jake. Aren't you going to say good morning to your girlfriend." Pam said. He just doesn't talk. "No. He's not. He lost his prick age to speak." I said. He looks at me and rolls his eyes. "You two are in a fight?" Pam asked. I just sip my coffee and eat my bacon. "Wow. You two are really mad. What'd he do?" Pam asked kinda laughing just kidding. "He brought a girl home last night and had sex with her a room down from mine." I said. Then I take another sip. Pam just stares at me, shocked, and than at him. "Jake." She said. "This is none of your business." Jake said to his mom. Then he goes downstairs. Pam looks at me. "Tessa I-" she said before I cut her off. "Don't say anything. I'll have my stuff packed and I'll be out of her by tonight." I said. She doesn't say anything. We're supposed to stay here for a week. It hasn't even been a week. "I'll come with you." Anthony said. "No. Stay and visit you family." I said. "Your more important." Anthony said. I stare at him. He's so cute and nice. "That's fine. Whatever you want to do." Pam said. Then she went upstairs to check on Jake. "I need to get out of here." I said. "I know Anthony said. Then he got out his phone. "What are you doing?" I asked. "Getting 2 plane tickets back to Los Angeles." He said. I smile and stand up. "I'm gonna go pack." I said. "Me too." He said. We both go upstairs and pack. I hear a knock at the door. "Come in." I said. "Tessa." I hear jakes voice. I turn around and see him looking at me feeling bad. "I know you don't want to date anymore and that's ok but I just want you to forgive me so we can get along and you can be on team 10." Jake said. I look him straight in the eyes. "Sure." I said. Then I pack my things. "Really?" He asked. "Yup. I forgive you as long as you forgive me. I like Anthony." I said. "I forgive you. It's ok." He said. I close my suit case and start to walk out the door. "End of discussion." I said as I pass him and walk out the door. I go downstairs and see Anthony waiting for me. We walk out the front door and go to the airport.
When we got back to the team 10 house, I put my stuff away and watched tv with Anthony. "Are you ok?" He asked. "I'm fine. I'm mad at him and I don't forgive him but I'll be fine." I said. "Ok." He said. Then, I went upstairs to my room. I don't want to do anything. I don't even want to breathe. I just want to go to heaven where everything is all sunshine and rainbows and I won't have to deal with boys. I don't want to be alive. I have to stop. I have to stop saying I don't want to be alive and continue to be alive. I want to die so I don't have to fight over these boys. I get up and go downstairs. I get my car keys and walk to the door. "Where are you going?" Anthony asked. "I'm going for a drive. Alone. I'll be fine." I said. Then I leave. I drive to a high cliff with water at the bottom. I'm not a strong swimmer and the waves are huge today so I will drown. I go to the top of the cliff and look out at the world one last time. "Goodbye." I said. Then I jump. When I get in the water. I come up to the surface but the waves push me back down. I swallow a lot of water. I try to come back up but the waves push me back under. This is exactly what I wanted. No more heartbreak. I can't breathe. I pass out.
