Dear Harry | LARRY

chapter one

Hii welcome to Dear Harry! I wrote this when I went through a really bad break up with my boyfriend (we got back together). This story most likely won't be very long at all but I hope you enjoy it xx

Fun fact: the Dear Harry on the cover is written in Louis' real handwriting.

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Dear Harry,

I can't believe it. After six years of being a band, after six years of non stop drama and sweat and tears. It's over. Maybe not completely because of promises of coming back together but it's over for now.

I'm happy. Of course I'm sad that such a big part of our lives is nearing it's end. I'm just glad to be away from all the cameras. I feel free. I feel like I can do anything. But the sad truth is, I'm still a puppet that Modest loves to play with.

I know that if shit didn't go down between us like we had, we would probably still be a band. I know that our constant fights and the tension that we would bring to rehearsals and other band related stuff was causing a big strain on not only us but the other boys. It had become so bad that even Zayn decided it was too much.

Our problems were that bad that it caused Zayn to leave the band, the band that we all managed to build together. I hate that we did this to the others. I hate that being in the band was the only way for me to hold onto you.

I wish you didn't walk away. I wish I could still wake up next to you every morning. I miss you so much, Harry. I miss you more each and everyday. I hate myself for letting our problems get so bad.

I feel so empty without you. I feel like a piece of me has been stripped away. I hate myself for ever hurting you, for ever taking you for granted.  You were the best thing that had ever happened to me. I feel so lost.

I wish I could send this letter to you but the truth is, I don't even know where you are. I have no address to mail this to. I fucked up, Harry. I know I did and I am so fucking sorry.

I hope you're safe. I hope you're happy.

Your sincerely,
                Louis Tomlinson