Last love ☆ Jensoo + Chaelisa

14

Jennie
I guess I could say that I'm sad. I wanted to get away from Jisoo. I needed to. The park was always beautiful, the blooming flowers that seemed to be welcoming me. The tall trees that loomed over me while it's leaves ruffled in the slightest wind.

My gently ran my hands through the pretty plants, stopping when I felt sharp pain on my finger. I looked at the beautiful maroon flower standing out in the green leaves. It's petals were beautiful, and the scent of it was indescribable. This plant looked perfect and flawless to me, it's little leaves gave it its final touches. I espied the small cut on my finger, watching the blood flow out from it.

This plant was beautiful but dangerous. What other plant could it be other than a pretty Rose?

Jisoo was like this pretty little Rose. Beautiful like its breathtaking flower— flawless, but dangerous like its thorns— hurtful. Maybe I should just push her away, it won't hurt as bad would it? I smiled to myself, my heart agreeing to my thoughts. A big part of me told me this would hurt but the tiny little remaining parts told me it would do me good. Somehow, the small parts of me got me.

I'm just too afraid to be hurt again.

Jisoo
I bent over, panting as I tried to catch my breath. I squinted and saw her standing by the Rose plants, looking at her fingers. I began to stand up, straightening my back as I caught my breath. I could see her shoulders drop slightly when she sighed. I caught a glimpse of a tear slipping down her face.

That broke my heart.

What have I done?

I took a step forward, the force of guilt and sadness stopping and holding me back. It was like a challenge for me to overcome, for me to go against the guilt and sadness in me. I was hesitant.

Maybe she didn't confess. Maybe she just loves me as a sister. Maybe she's straight. Maybe she's eyeing someone else.

I still decided to go to her but when I looked up, she was already gone. The figure of her disappeared.

Too late, I suppose.

I walked to the spot where she was, looking at the plants that she seemed to look at.

Roses.

Another bang of guilt hit me when I noticed the drop of blood on the white ground, seeping in. The words of Jennie kept replaying in my mind.

"I can't be here without you. I need you here. I want you here with me. I don't want you to leave me,"

Did she really mean those words?

Definitely not.

Maybe I should return back to who I was. The Jisoo who keeps out of everything, the one that always walk away from situations, the one who doesn't stand a chance to speak, the one who bottles up her feeling no matter what. That was who I was in high school.

If that's what Jennie wants me to become, I would definitely do it for her. I would give up anything just for her. Even if she doesn't notice it, I would sacrifice anything small or big thing, inclusive of my life.

My head was hung low as I walked back to the dorm, silently wishing that Jennie would go back. I knew that she is stubborn and she never EVER, listens. My heart felt empty. Walking this path of the park reminded me of us. She would usually walk Kuma and Kai with me and Dalgom. I know, this is cliché but I seriously want her back here with me. Her company just makes me so much happier.

I was walking at a comfortable pace, hearing the loud noice of thunder. I stopped and looked up to the sky, watching how the dark grey clouds moved in the wind direction, covering the sun. At the corner of my eye, I saw light. Knowing that was lightning immediately, I continued making my way back to the dorm. This walk was dreadful, how I had to act okay in front of everyone was just so tiring.

I had so many thoughts and questions in my mind, it added so much weight to my head. It felt like bricks were placed on my head. Thoughts of mine just clouded my mind so much that it made me unmindful of my surroundings. I missed the people carrying umbrellas, I missed the people running to the nearest shelter and I missed the loud noise of the thunder.

The next thing I knew, I felt water droplets. Rain.

It started to rain heavily, drenching me in around ten seconds. I didn't mind about it, and continued walking. I loved rainy days. It's the perfect weather to cry, thus, people won't notice your tears. A huge part of me wanted to just break down but seeing how other patrons were whispering and pointing at me, I decided not to. They'd probably be questioning why would a k-pop idol be here alone in the torrential rain. Well, any wild guess would be right.

Just then, someone holding an umbrella came up to me.

"Oh my god! J-Jisoo? Why are you alone here in the heavy rain? Where's Jennie?" she asked. I supposed she was a fan. I just smiled despite the spears thrown at my heart.

"Oh haha! Just wanted to enjoy the rain alone!" I said in a perky voice, wearing the smile I always had on cam.

She smiles, "Here, take this umbrella, don't get sick okay? Bye! Oh wait! And help me tell Jennie that I love her soooo much!"

I just nodded politely, "Will do. Thank you."

Seriously, everything wasn't going very well and we have to add more Jennie into this.

How am I gonna continue like this?

She ran in the rain to a store nearby to seek shelter. I felt bad, watching her get wet. I carried the umbrella back home and tossed it to the side.

Lisa and Chaeyoung were back home in the living room.

"Jisoo unnie? Why are you so drenche-"

"Shut up," I snapped, heading into my room.
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A/N: what's gonna happen?