Storm Drains (pennywise love fan-fic) *completed*

Chapter 31

I laid awake next to Penny. We were just looking at each other and it felt peaceful. The day was cold and we were huddled up inside, warm and safe. Penny's eyes were blue, signaling he was calm. He looked innocent, so gentle. But I knew he wasn't.

We had just gotten into a huge fight resulting in slammed doors and broken promises. I said things. Horrible things. And even if he was an evil creature with evil intentions, my words stung him. I know they did.

Penny insisted on hunting Jordan down. I couldn't let him. Jordan had no idea, he was innocent. But in penny's eyes he was a threat, his enemy. His hands touched my skin, and his lips touched my lips. Something only Penny was allowed to do now.

I wanted to tell him I was sorry. And that I did it out of spite. But I knew that wouldn't be the truth. In those days I was away from Penny, I saw myself gravitating towards my normal life. I felt normal and I wanted to be with normal people. I wanted to go home with guys and not worry about seeing them on the news. Hearing about how they were found dead somewhere in Derry. I wanted to have children when I grew old. I wanted to get married and move out of Derry and buy my first home. I wanted my kids to go to school and see my husband drop them off. I wanted to take family vacations and have cheesy cheesy Christmas cards. I wanted to celebrate birthdays and celebrate anniversaries. And I knew that was something I would never have with Penny. It wasn't his fault. It wasn't in his nature to begin with. It was already rare that he had found comfort and a different emotion with me, and that made him vulnerable enough. I couldn't ask for more.
But I was in love with Penny, and I would drop all of those desires to be with him. He was the one I wanted to be with. Only him.

We kept looking at each other and all I could wonder was what he was thinking.

"Your forehead is kinda big" I said stifling a laugh.

He groaned in response but didn't say anything. I began to play with the features on his face, and he surprisingly let me.

"Do you love me?" I asked in all seriousness. I knew the answer to that already but I just wanted to hear it from him.

"Don't ask questions you know the answer too" he growled. I held back from rolling my eyes as I knew it was a pet peeve of his.

"How old are you?" I asked.

Penny groaned in annoyance at all my questions.

"Go to sleep" he snapped. I giggled at his snappy mood. He was tired, but refused to fall asleep until I did.

"Fine" I huffed as I closed my eyes shut. My cheeks began to hurt from how bad I tried not to laugh.

I snorted as I held in my laughter. I opened one of my eyes and saw Penny looking at me with frustration and anger.

"I'm sorry" I said as I began to laugh. I held my mouth with my hand in order to stop but that just made it worse.

Penny's face just made it 10x funnier. He was so upset for no reason and I found it amusing. He was like a grumpy old man.

"Ok ok o- ok I'll I- stop" I said in between laughs.

"Why are you always in a bad mood?" I asked as I bit the inside of my cheek, to stop myself from laughing all over again.

I saw his lips curl up into a faint smile. His gloved hand fell softly upon my face. He began to stroke the side of my face as he looked at me, amused.

"Beautiful" he whispered to himself.

I felt my cheeks turn red at his compliment. I looked at him as he inspected my face.

"How strong are you?" I asked. I was curious on all his characteristics. I wanted to know more.

"Very" he said blankly, not trying to deepen the conversation.