* still flash back *
I had fell asleep since the mall we were in was a while away from queens when we got to the hospital I saw Bres cheeks were stained with tears as were mine when she saw that I was awake she quickly tried to wipe the dry tears and failed at that I don't know why she's so scared to show her feelings I grabbed her hands and looked her in the eyes and said
"Bre you don't have to be so tough all the time crying isn't gonna make me think any less or you sis"
"Okay" she said softly
I went in my bag and grabbed twos wet wipes and handed her one we both cleaned up our faces and walked into the hospital
" Can we please have to room number of bahja Rodriguez ?"
" Are you family? many paparazzi have been trying to get back their " the lady stated being that me and bre both had glasses and hoods on she couldn't recognize us
"* I slightly pulled my glasses down and sweatshirt up* is that enough id or do you want me to give you my license?" I chucked lightly at her expression she basically looked like this 😳😱😮😯 that's how her face changed it was funny
" Omg your * whispers* zonnique pullins and I'm guessing your breaunna Womack one of the best dancers ever " she gushed " let me get y'all passes to enter one sec" she went to the back to get the two passes and returned
"Thank you Johanna have a great day "
I said the girl almost fainted I giggled flashed my dimple then the reality sunk in after we walked they the double doors that divided the cons of the world and the pros of the world once we entered the white halls of the hospital breaunna and myself removed our glasses and hoodies i clenched on to mine tightly I'm not really sure why It just made me feel safe the smell of bleach and hand sanitizer lingered in the air every step I took i felt sicker and sicker i just though about how my two bestfriends my hittas are hurt ... I clenched my lingering hand with breaunnas I cried softly to my self trying not to expect anything with the girls conditions ..... once we got to the room that bahja was assigned to I broke down at the door way she looked so helpless laying there with a cast on her arm and leg and her face with small bandages and one very big one across her cheek probably with stitches under it at the time I was unsure of Samantha's condition since I had dropped my phone before I could here breaunna went to talked to the doctor after she guided me to my seat I just looked at bahja which made me cry more bre came back and for the 3 time in the 15 years I had known her she broke down in my arms but this time wasent like the 2 before it was sad to watch she looked so sad and hurt ,fragile, scared, torn is the word for how breaunna looked I slowly sat her on my lap as if she was my child she sat on the little bit of my lap that my stomach didn't take up and just cried and cried on my shoulder and keep saying why god? she cried for at least 20 minutes straight I on the other hand was also crying just not as intensely as before since I was still not aware of what the doctor had told breaunna I was just stroking her long brown natural hair holding her little hand with my free hand .... I finally asked her what the doctor had told her after another 10 minutes if us sitting their like that she told me that the doctor said that Samantha died ..... my face kinda looked like this 😟 my bottom lip quivered viciously and I felt the world stop did she just say that on of my bestfriends since I was 6 had died i couldn't believe what she had told me my eyes threatened to drop thousands of more tears and I was loosing the battle of holding them back Eventually I have up on holding them back and they just poured and poured now I was sitting on breaunnas lap crying into her now damp shirt it was like that for another 10-20 minutes until a puffy eyed aunty shamra ran into the room with momma they were in new york for my baby shower with ... she only looked at bahja and more tears poured out her eyes uncle Vic came in and she cried on his shoulder everyone in the room was crying even pops the doctors then asked if we could please leave the room so they could check up on Bahji and change her gown and bed spread and move her to a bigger room and crap since I requested she gets put in one of the top suites since she was gonna be in here for a while hopefully she'll be able to leave early if she gets better
