Poems and Quotes

I See Your Fake Smile

I see your fake smile.

Because believe me darling, I know that smile. I know what it feels like to reply, "I'm good" when someone asks you how you are. But not because you are good, because you're just so used to saying it, that you don't even think about it anymore. You don't even realize the question being asked. Your response is just so rehearsed, that it comes out with no effort. Just like that beautiful smile, darling. It breaks your heart to lie to those you love. It's so hard to tell them everything is perfectly fine. But it's even harder to tell them the truth. You don't want to be in such a vulnerable state. You can't handle that kind of pity. But you've gotta believe me, darling, you're not alone. I'm here for you. I understand that reflection you see every night. The one you don't even recognize anymore. That same smile that you've been wearing for years to fool everyone into thinking you're fine, has finally fooled you. Just for that split second, when you look in the mirror and see that stranger smiling back at you, you believe it. You actually think that you just might be happy. But then, you're heart starts to hurt, your body starts to ache, your tears start to flood, and all the memories come back. You're not okay. You're not happy. You're dying from the inside out, and nobody even bothers to notice. You feel like you're alone and everyone has given up on you. But you have to believe me, you're not alone, darling. I'm here. I'm right here holding your hand. I'm rubbing your back as you cry into my shoulder. Even if you can't see me or hear me, I'm here. And I'm not going anywhere. Because I know what it feels like to want to just throw it all away and say, "fuck it." I know what it's feels like to think, "I'm not worth it. Nobody cares about me, and everyone leaves. So it's my turn. I'm going to be the one to leave this time, and leave them hurting and alone." But darling, you are so incredibly worth it. Your life matters to me. Even if we've never talked, or if I don't even know you're name. I'm here for you. And I care about you. I don't want you to go anywhere. Maybe I'm your bestfriend, maybe I'm your mother. Maybe I'm your baby sister or your father that's never home. I care about you, and I don't want you to go anywhere. I know it's tough, darling, but hang in there. Do it for me. Do if for everyone one who has ever told you they loved you. I'm so sorry you have to wear that fake smile everyday, but stay strong, darling. Stay strong and hold on to the mystery of tomorrow.