Afraid (ON HOLD)

The Feeling, Drugs, and Remembering

Sherlock POV

The Feeling it's just a feeling only a feeling.

I deleted it,

I've tried to delete it

,but I couldn't it just grew

Overall POV

On Friday Novemeber 9, as John headed to the market, as Mycroft

Studied for the up coming exam, and as Greg headed towards Johns & Sherlock's dorm, Sherlock took the 1st dose trying to get rid of the feeling that only grew.

Greg's POV

I balled my fist it hit the dorm room door it made a loud tap sound that echoed through the halls.

Tap Tap Tap

"Sherlock!" I yelled , I had a case for him.

"Sherlock!" I tried again this time I pounded on the door.

"Sherlock I have a case for you !"

POUND POUND POUND

I slipped a hand into my pocket and slipped out a paper clip ,and began to pick the lock. Sherlock had been rubbing of on me. After I finally heard a click I practically kick down the door. 

My heart stopped. It just stopped.

on the light blue carpet lay a curly mop of black hair ,and a long pale body.

I couldn't run over to him fast enough.

"Sherlock." I whispered. I gently shook his broad shoulders. He fluttered his eyes open slowly then began to close them again .

"Sherlock!" I cried shaking him harder.

He opened his eyes half way.

"Greg." he said sounding half asleep.

'...I'm glad your here... hand me that needle there..." He said drifting.

"Sher- Sherlock! don't leave me! Why did you do this!" tears threated to fall form my burning eyes.

"The feeling, the feeling for John." and his eyes slowly close. Then I began to sob because he remembered, he remembered my name just as I'm about to lose him.

John's POV

I'm running, I don't think I can run fast enough. My mind is scattered all over the place. he scene plays over and over again in my head from the last 30 mins , as I run down the street towards freeman hospital.

I remember a panicked Mycroft Holmes busting through the doors of the farmers market to get to me screaming my name.

'John!"

"John!"I turn around just as he grabs my wrist. The rest just slips into a blur, and I found myself running faster, and faster.My vision was blocked by memories ,and my hearing was too by Sherlock's favorite song.

Today I'm not myself

And you, your someone else

And all these rules don't fit

And all those star cant quit

What a purqular state were in 

Lets play a game

Where all the lives we live could change

Memories, Memories, block my vision as I head down the street.

 The 1st time I feel for him at the music shop

When I forgave him

The time we danced on Halloween

But no he wouldn't leave me, he couldn't, not before I told him. Don't leave me Sherlock not again.

Mycroft POV

I ran through the hospital trying to find room 221B coincide? Come on Sherly. I thought stay with me please. I was going to lose it.

Stay.

Stay!

STAY!

This reminded me of the time Sherlock got beat up by Carl Powers in secondary school, and I could nothing but watch as they held me back. I felt helpless. S right now I felt like that little boy being held back by bullies in secondary school. Don't leave me Sherlock not again. I find his room about around the time John and Greg arrive. past Greg and John, just as the doctors close the snow white door in my face. I began to hear the heart monitor go blank in my head over and over. I lose it. I break down. my knees give away ,and I land on them with a painful thud.

"No!" I whisper

I ball up my fist and pound on the door.

"No!" I scream

POUND

''NO!"

POUND

''NO!"

POUND

I feel two pair of hands on each of my shoulders. I look up expecting to see Gregory ,and John only to find Anderson and Carl Powers.

I'm in a flash back. I cant control myself in a flash back.

I find myself back in secondary school being held back by Carl and his hooligans. I see young Sherlock across form me in the ally.  

"Myc!"

I can hear his young voice cry out for help as, I struggle to reach him.

"Mycroft help me!"

"Mycroft!"

"Myc!"

The vision in front of me fades. Gregory is holding my shoulders looking into my eyes. Eventually he lets go and sit to my left and John to my right. We sit in silence.

"He'll ne fine be you know." I pipe up.

"He's Sherlock stubborn, insane, persistent." We have a small chuckle "Plus he cant leave I haven't for filled my promise yet" I faded towards the last part.

"What promise?" John ask curiously.

"Well the night before I left for the University I was doing some late night packing, then Sherlock came into my room back then we had a better relationship so, I didn't mind. I then realized that could be the last living with Sherlock. So I took him to our sitting room, and decided to teach hm to play the piano, But before we got stared he asked me: "Mycroft if you go off to uni ,and change can the old Mycroft still come back to visit?" Although my heart broke at the question. I replied with "Yes , but even I you cant come back I leave you with this song." ,And that night I taught him how to play Au Revoir."

"That's why It's his favorite song." John mumbled smiling to him self.

Just then a doctor came out of the snow whit door, and called me in.

I couldn't  run fast enough. I opened the door and shut it fast behind me.

"Hello brother mine." He said to me , even in illness he was still sarcastic.

"I heard about your little meltdown, I thought caring wasn't an advantage?" I could hear the smirk in his voice.  

I looked him in the eye on the edge of tears "It's not voluntary either."

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