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50ㅣNightmares

Hoseok's POV

I see her, my Butterfly, running towards me after she comes out of her hospital room. The doctor told me earlier that she regained all of her memories and I'm so happy to know she's fully with me again. Knowing how much I love her.

I pull her into my arms, hugging her as if I didn't want to let go or I would lose her forever. I kiss her forehead with my heart passing to her through a kiss. She pulls away from me and holds both of my hands, while giving me a bright lovingly smile. "I love you so much oppa. I will never leave you. I'll always remember you. No matter what we go through, I will always love you. Even if something happens, I will always have a feeling in my heart that I love you".

She holds my hands with tender care, her shiny eyes looking into mine. "That is so thoughtful of you, (Y/N). But why are you talking to me like that? It's scaring me a little".

Worry spreads across my face. I knit my eyebrows in confusion and a sort of pain pings in my heart. "To death? Hahahaha!" Her aura completely changes. She forces my hands away from her's. "That's right. I will die alone or I will die without you and in some else's arms. I truly never loved you. I never gave a damn about you. You are pathetic. And I thought you were a playboy. I thought it was lust at first sight... Being all sweet? Don't make me laugh because I won't. You're just a sad excuse for a human. You may have the visuals but you have nothing with personality. Even our first time disgusts me. The thought of you touching my whole body makes me want to throw up".

She holds her stomach making a gesture of imaginary puke. I cringe at her grotesque description. "But-"

She snaps at me, with a slight growl. "Don't interrupt me while I'm yelling at you! You may have the looks and the attitude but you are nothing. You are worthless. What kind of person would want you? Hm? Nobody. They only want what's on the outside. They don't care about you. They don't care about you at all. I only said that because that's what you wanted to hear. Well news flash, this isn't a movie or a webtoon... Now, you can talk".

My voice starts shaking, tears threatening to fall but I force them to stay in. "Why are you doing this? What did I do wrong? I never wanted to hurt you. You are my fragile little butterfly. I wanted to stay with you, even after high school. I want you to stay with me. I want us. I want us to be together. To- to- to make... A family. I wanted that. And I still do".

I took a deep breath in and out to keep my bearings. "So why are you being so cruel and heartless? I can't fathom or comprehend any of this. I love you so much. Why would you play with my emotions like this? Why (Y/N)? Just why?"

She takes a step back, folding her arms. A smirk plasters on her face making me shrink into nothingness. "It's called being a player, genius. It's called a dare. Seduce you and I win. That simple enough for ya? And you made it easier than I expected. Wasn't much of a challenge really".

The tears that I fought back begins to fall. I held in my emotions too long that my tears begin to stream down my face. I flinch when she touches me and wipes my tears away. Her smile turns soft making my heart hurt to see her. "Poor baby boo, don't cry. You might get puffy eyes tomorrow. Just let me know what you're feeling. And I'll make it ten times worse for you. That's why you can call me monster".

She sounds so innocent but by the end, she's not. I get all choked up. "Why are you doing this to me?"

She shrugs. "Because it's fun. But the real question is... Are you awake?"

I give her a weird look. She takes my hand and leads me to a mirror. "Look here. Look at your reflection. What do you see?"

"Me?" I stare at it with confusion.

She chuckles but it wasn't cute at all. "No. You see a lost boy who feel in love with a player from hell. You're just living a lie. Just look at the rain on your face. No matter how many filters you use, it can't mask your face. You can't because it's apart of your DNA. You will always be this way".

My eyes feel a pain surging behind them. My eyes start stinging. She whispers in my ear. "Wake up. Oh and before I forget. Here's a picture. You thought you got the best of me but you have no clue what type of sea you dropped in. Hahaha. Just wake up already".

I look down at the picture. A picture that she was holding in her hands when she feel asleep that day.

The picture she took of me sleeping and about to open my eyes. When I learned that she made a laminated picture of it I was puzzled and happy. I look up to her. Her smile as gentle as the wind on a warm spring day. "Wake up oppa. Wake up. WAKE UUUUPP!!!"

I sit up with beads of sweat all over my body like I just got done with a dance practice. I wipe my face to see tears streaming down it. I look over to see my sister, Aya. "Rise and shine horse face. It's school. Sometimes I feel like the mom". She folds her arms, walking away. "And before I go..."

I look over to her. "Why were you crying in your sleep?"

I shrug. "I don't remember". Which is a lie.

She slowly nods. "Oh okay. I was just wondering. If you want me to be your therapist, go to a building with trained professionals. Cuz I ain't doin anythin. Got it?"

"Yes ma'am," I solute.

Aya rolls her eyes, shutting the door. I fall back onto the bed wiping the beads of sweat on my forehead. "That dream hurt my heart so badly. Why did it have to be a vivid dream? Ugh!!!"

I take my pillow from underneath my head and scream into it. I lay there for a few minute contemplating life. "I guess I should get ready for school".

I get up to another day at school without my first love by my side. A long day awaits and I'm going to hate it. The nightmares have been getting worse. This is not the first time. When (Y/N) was still under, I would get these demented nightmares. But this time they're becoming more frequent and vivid.

I leave my house with the one thing that was predominate in my whole nightmare. The single thing that made me happy. The picture she gave me. Knowing that everything will turn out fine. Even though it was a nightmare, at least there was a little good that came out from it.

To Be Continued....

I don't know how to feel about this chapter. I don't hate it but I don't love it either. Love Ya! 뽀뽀!

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