Flower Boy || SoonHoon

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Jihoon's P.O.V

Soonyoung has been acting weird this whole day and it make me worried. After school, he quickly leave me and went back home. I feel....... Pain. He didn't even tell me if he have something to do. He leave just like that.

"Jiji, don't think too much. Maybe he have something really important to do" Seungcheol said and I just nodded, not really have a mood to talk to any of them.

I walk away to my home and decide to take a bath before going to Soonyoung's house.
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When I'm infront of Soonyoung's house, I see him close his front door so I quickly hide behind the trees. I also have bought a cake, thinking that maybe we could eat this together and an album of our photo that I have been printed out from my phone.

I follow him quietly behind, didn't want to interrupt him. Maybe he have some work to do, so I will just let him finish his work first.

I saw him walk into the shopping mall and I'm so lost. Did he want to meet someone here? That when I see a girl hug him. I couldn't see his face because he is facing the other side. I want to see his reaction so bad. Did he enjoy it? Did he grimaced?

The girl link their hand together before walking into a cute cafe. They seat near the mirror so its easy for me to watch them from the outside. It breaks my heart when I see Soonyoung fed the girl. Its break even more when they kiss each other.

I walk inside the cafe and slam my hand on the table. Both of them are startled and Soonyoung's eyes widen.

"What are you doing here?" Soonyoung ask, looking horrid.

"Why did you kiss my boyfriend huh slut?" I didn't replied Soonyoung but instead, I realize my anger on that girl. I know my Soonyoung won't do things like this. 

"Wuji, stop this" Soonyoung stop me from pushing that girl.

"But this girl is flirting with you! She is a slu-" Before I could finish my words, Soonyoung slap me right on the face. I gasped and stare at him in disbelief before tears started to brimming from my eyes.

"Just go, you don't know anything about her! She is my ex-girlfriend and she just want to spend this last day with me before completely leaving. Why are you such a hard headed?" Soonyoung said, didn't even concern that his words is like a knife, stabbing me right on my heart.

"I-I guess they are right. Ex lover first before your formal lover right? Because we have so much memory in the past with our first love than our second love. Bu-but I'm different. Be-because I have deleted all of my memories with my first love eversince you co-come into my li-life." I stop to catch a breath. Stupid tears.

"It-its okay, I'm sorry for calling you slut when I didn't know you. I'm sorry for interrupting, pl-please enjoy your evening together" I said, dropping the cake and album before running away.

I stop at the park and look behind. Soonyoung didn't even chase me. Why can't I get a true lover? Did I do something wrong? Soonyoung had promised to never done something like my ex did, but I guess this is my fate.

I watch the kids playing with each other. If only I could turn back time, I would wish to never exist in this world. I punch my chest as its hurt so much and cried loudly, didn't care if people are watching.

I walk into the alley lifelessly and my eyes widened when I see Soonyoung hugging his ex to protect her from being hurt by some crazy man. I smiled at the sight, she is so lucky to have a man protecting her. I feel jealous, if only I was her.

I saw one of the man point his gun towards Soonyoung but they couldn't see it because they are facing each other. I run as quick as I can before that man can shoot Soonyoung.

I open my arms to protect them and before I know, the bullets were seeping in my body. It hurts, but not as much as my heart. All of the crazy man running away, leaving the alley. I fall into my knees and I could feel Soonyoung took me onto his lap.

"Jihoon please don't close your eyes! I'm sorry I'm sorry baby please I love you so much!" Soonyoung shouting and ask his ex to call ambulance.

"I'm ha-happy if you are happy ev-even if it hurts me. At-at least this time, it is not like my past. T-this time, I got to lea-leave first! Soon, I lo-love you that it hurts. Yo-your words are de-deeper than those bu-bullets. I g-guess th-this is wh-why peo-people are afraid to fa-fall in love huh?" I smiled and hold his face. If this is the last time, then let me see his face until I close my eyes.

"Jihoon I will explain everything if you promise me to stay strong. Its-its not like what you think. I ne-never leave you Hoonie. I have always love you, before, now and in the future. Nothing will change. So pl-please don't leave me baby. I'm so sorry, please Hoonie" Soonyoung cried and tried to talk something again before I fell unconscious.

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Soonyoung's P.O.V

"NOOOO JIHOON! Please promise me to wake up again pleaseee! It is all my fault." I shout and cried. Oh God, I couldn't state how regret I am for hurting him. I slapped him and didn't even explain on why I did that. But despite the hurt, he still protect me and her. He take the bullets for me regarding what I did to him before. If only, I have explain everything in the cafe before he leave.

"Soon, it is my fault. My fault for asking one last day. I'm so sorry for destroying everything. Our day have come to the end and I will leave forever. Tell him that I am sorry and please cherish him with your whole heart. Goodbye Kwon Soonyoung." She said and leave right when the ambulance come.
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I seat infront of the operation room with our friends and our parents. All of them look worried and I still couldn't stop crying. If anything happened to him, I swear I couldn't leave my life without him. I stare at the cake and the album infront of me. I could feel more tears coming out from my eyes and didn't even bother to make it stop.

'Jihoon, please survive. I need you, I love you and I want to hug you. Please make it..'

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A/n, I'm actually a big fan of angst so I decide to make one.

This week is the last week of my exam and this 1 week feel like 1 years because of the exam.

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