Its been well over six months since you started living with me. Our bond grew stronger than anyone else's bond. It's been four months since my confession, I was very very pleased to find out you returned the same feelings and, we started dating. I currently sat on the dinner table along with you and my family. I noticed my mother glancing at me many times while she was chewing her food. I felt uncomfortable so naturally, I questioned her about it.
"Mom?" I called out to her, to grab her attention. Once I was sure I had it, I proceeded. "I noticed you looking at me a few times, is there something you want to say?" She gave me a look of surprise but, that quickly left as soon as it came. The look of surprise was replaced by hesitation and my curiosity only grew. "Honey, listen" she started. "I want to you to know I will never be against you and will always support you. But please, for your own safety listen to me. You can't keep on doing this. That thing is ruining you. And I'm sure you know that too." Her speech ended with a growl as she pointed at the love of my life with disdain.
I was shocked she felt that way, but that quickly turned into anger and soon, I was fuming."How dare you say that?! If you truly were supportive you wouldn't say that about it!" I yelled anger swirling in me. "How's the one thing that keeps me alive ruining me? If anything you're the one who is!" she looked surprised which only increased the rage in me. She really hasn't noticed that she was the cause of my pain along with her husband? "Our love is completely normal! I'm not the only one who's in a relationship like this. There are thousands out there but you just choose to stay blind to it! You failed to help me when I really needed it, so why are you trying to help me now?" my voiced softened and my eyes watered.
Mom looked speechless. Not a single word came out of her mouth as she stood there. Her eyes softened slightly.
After a moment of silence, she finally spoke. "How was I supposed to know when you've never told me? sweetheart please, just hear me out." I didn't answer and she took that as a sign to continue "What you're doing is wrong. You'll be hated by alot of people, no one will accept this here. I'm saying this for your own good. I understand how much you love it, I was there too, but, because I was there I'm trying to stop you before it's too late. I only want the best for you and I'm sure you know that. I sincerely apologise for not understanding you, not being there when you needed me" her voice broke and a tear fell from her eyes my heart broke at the sight. "I'm sorry for not acting like a mother when I should've but, please baby, I don't want you to feel the same pain as I did." My mother was full on sobbing by now. It was absolutely heartbreaking and it pained me alot. I walked slowly towards her and wrapped my arms around her.
She was right. I knew she was. I knew this couldn't be accepted, I knew it wouldn't but I still couldn't help it. I took a glance at you and saw you staring back at me with pain in your eyes. my heart broke even more. "Mom, I'm sorry for what I've said, I should've known you were suffering too. I'm happy you're worried for me, I'm really grateful. However, I still can't let go of it, no matter how wrong it is, no matter what other people think, I'll still love it forever. I've never felt this way before and I'm sure I'll deeply regret it if I let go of it. So please mom, will you accept my decision and support me?"
My mother pulled back from our hug and looked up at me with a smile and teary eyes. She wiped her tears away and chuckled "They really do grow up fast" she mumbled and I softly laughed along. "Of course i will baby. You better take good care of it and never let go of it." I grinned at her "Of course."
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A few years have past and our relationship is still going strong. Sure we've had our couple fights but they were nothing too serious. I'm glad I never let go otherwise I wouldn't have experienced these wonderful feelings. Although the world may be against us, we still have eachother and we'll never let go. Forever I'll continue listening to your beautiful melody.
