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The Apology

"It doesn't matter how much you fuck up then try to fix it. They won't forgive you in the end then you loose an amazing girlfriend who was your best friend too. The amount of times I have passed the house, that holds so many memories and wanted to ring the bell and get her to answer and not slam the door in my face is insane. It needs to be fixed, the chance has to be created and just right. Just one talk, that's all I ask for. For all I know she could be reading this right now and if she is? She needs to know I'm deeply sorry and I want to talk one last time. Me and you, somewhere public . To just hear me out and let me say everything."

"That all you got?"

"Yeah. You got any ideas?"

"Well why don't you say something like this...
Not a day goes by when I don't think of you, of what we had together. I close my eyes and I see us together. I regret everything I did to hurt you. I can't explain why I did it but I am really sorry. You have every right to hate me and to be honest I'm still waiting for you to kick my head in because I deserve it. I deserve every word you said to me and all the ones that are bound to come if you let me talk."
He said to me as we sat down to lunch.

"Ohh that's good then I can say...
I tried moving on but I can't. My life revolved around you and part of it still does. I still sit and think about that night we had together when we were drunk and just talking not knowing that we were both I love with each other."

"Oh my gosh! Yes! Just remember that this might not work and don't get obsessed with trying to fix this. Don't want you looking like a mental patient or anything"

"See this is why your the only person I will talk to about this because your only in my head so it doesn't matter what you think because I have already thought of it and you can't think I'm phyco without me thinking I'm phyco."

"Not gonna lie that hurt a little. God I hope this works"

"Yeah I know because so do I. I can't believe what I said to her about my ex being my best pal. Is she fuck she pure blew off our plans and fucked off with Steven. If anything that just proved that she was just a made up thing in my head and isn't coming back"

"Like me then except I'm coming back when you think of me again. Anyways go get this typed up and make it official . Maybe call it "The apology" or even "steady 1 2 3 4""