My Journal

10.24.2017

Hi!!!!!!! 😁

Ugh. So I'm not feeling well today. I have this irritating and awfully painful condition: Muscle Spasm. It starts from the uppermost part of my nape to my upper back. It's really painful, and when days like this come (when it triggers), I can't get up or do pretty much anything that requires standing up. It's especially more painful when I sit down. Sometimes the pain spreads to my fingers. I visited about three to four doctors for the past 8 years (yes, I've been having this for that long). They told me it is most probably due to my posture 'cause I slouch all the time, and it just got worse when I pursued Architecture because I'm always looking down on my drawings. LOL. They also said, there's nothing really wrong with my bones, and it's probably my nerves causing this. I've had too many X-Rays and they all said it's nothing serious, just debilitating. *sighs*

It's really uncomfortable! I spent the day lying in bed—not that I complain, but I can't really sit down to eat or get something. It's really painful. I hope this doesn't happen to any of you. Plus, it gives me too much headache. I think this condition "attacks" when I'm feeling too stressed or too relaxed. And that kind of sucks. And I've drank so many medicines! This causes me to be depressed sometimes because I'd have to miss school for this. I actually almost failed one of my major subjects this semester because I had to be absent on the day of our Midterms in that course, to see a doctor. The next few weeks, my professor kept forgetting the exam sheet and in the last week of our lessons with her, I got late (traffic is awful here, I swear!) and she took it out on me and said I couldn't take the exam anymore. She thought I'd be devastated but I was actually really okay with it. LOL. But then the next week after that, she went back to school to collect our Finals submittal and she made me take the test. I'm not really fond of her but she has conscience. HAHAHA! 💁🏻

Lying in bed for the entire day also means just watching the TV, reading, and forcing myself to make food so that I could put it beside me while I'm bedridden and reading books here. I'm that unfortunate. LOL.

Lastly, I was browsing Taylor Swift tweets and couldn't be more jealous of those who got to go the reputation Secret Sessions. :( They're so lucky! ❤️

Anyway, 'til here because I need to sleep. The meds are kicking in and I'm feeling a bit sleepy. 'Til the next day! 😘

Love,
M.