My Journal

03.20.2018

Hi everyone!

So I know it's been a while. And to be honest, I got back here on Wattpad just to have an escape from the real world right now. I'm not depressed. I'm actually happy with everything that's going on in my life right now. Or maybe I'm just contented. But you get the point, right? :D

I have a funny thing to admit, though. My two groupmates and I, failed our Bachelor's Thesis deliberations for about, only 0.33 points. So I was disappointed. But it was, like, for only five minutes and then I was okay again. Thinking about it at this moment is actually making me smile. At least, it's over. Haha! And I'm still going to get that diploma. Hopefully. LOL.

And now I'm counting down the days to when I can finally leave university and get rid of the people there. I just, I have these letters written for each and everyone of my college blockmates (even those who are known as my arch-nemeses) and I'm torn between giving it to them or just throwing it away. I sometimes feel like they're not worthy to receive anything like that from me especially when looking back, all I could feel was taking crap from them. I wasn't bullied. It's just that, I just couldn't tell who was real to me and who wasn't all the time. Because I keep myself real. I am unapologetically me all the time, but I can't say the same for those people. Don't get me wrong. I can be a major jerk when I really want to be, I tend to get angry and sensitive at nonsense sometimes. That's the reason why I keep it all to myself when I'm loathing people. I'm afraid to say all the bad things even when I know it's the truth because I know I'll never be able to take it back. But why is it that for some, it's so easy for them to make others feel like they're some kind of superiority when in reality they're really just dumb at everything? Like literally. LOL. And then what's more obnoxious is when they play the victim. Right. Blame it all on me. 🙄

Sigh. I wanted to put something positive here, but I failed. LOL. I miss my high school friends. They're idiots but at least they're real. 😂 If they can't give me a compliment, they wouldn't, and most of the time, it's tough love that I get from them. Some real talk. 😂

I just can't wait for college to be over.

Love,
M.