adopted by demi lovato

The Meeting

*MARRISA P.O.V*

I woke up early.  Today was the day of the meeting. I just wanted to get their and know any information as soon as possible. When I got up I didn't even bother showering this was just too important right now. I through on an tracksuit and grabbed an apple than drove hastily to the address of the meeting.

"Hi you must be here to talk about lily?" I was asked by a Lady I can onky assume was the care worker. She was young but looked mature in her tight skirt and shirt.

"Yeah" I casually told her trying not to worry to much just yet.

I was led to a room and sat at a table. There were piles of paperwork and folders mostly labeled 'Lily's carer 1...2...3' scattered across the table.How many people had she been to?

"sooo" she said. Seeming unsure of why I was actually here. To be fare I hadn't actually told her anything yet. The fact she isn't assuming anything might be a good thing though I suppose.

"sooo" I replied, only adding to the awkward tension.  Just how do I start this conversation.

"you wanted to talk about lily?" she asked me, beginning to gain some confidence.

I replied with "yes" and she motioned for me to go on. Unsure of my next words and where to start I stuttered.

"well..err..you see..err"

"its ok take ur time" she reasured me "everything here is confidential" This made me feel slightly better knowing that what I was saying wasn't going to be taken to seriously. With that in mind I attempted to phrase what I had come here to talk about.

"Well its just we've noticed lily is a bit, well, self consious and can at times be odd around food" At this point she started to pull out her (im guessing) important folders and putting the rest in a draw "We were just wondering if anyone else had picked up on this" I concluded deciding that was all I needed to know for now.

She had chosen 7 folders and files and put 4 back away. How did Lily have this many previous carers. Was there really something that wrong with her. Surely not,  she seemed like a reasonably normal child.

"Yes.we have seven cases here all with 'eating disorder' being the main reason for return"

I was gobsmacked so demi had been right to be so worried, but how on earth could someone return a child just because they have an eating disorder. What were they thinking? They would adopt Lily and if anything was slightly of just send her back? NO! what the hell. Girls with eating disorders need people thete for them. People who will be compassionate and at least TRY to understand.

"oh I see," I said awkwardly. Slightly distracted from the rant I had just had in my head.

"We take her back in two days time earliest but for now do u think u can get by" She said to me with a shakey voice and saddened expression. Had she really become this use to people just bringing Lily back that that is what she had come to assume? This single thought made me feel sick. This girl really is going to need fixing more than I thought. Her self esteem must be rock bottem.

"Oh god no" I practically screamed at her, wanting her to understand that my intentions couldn't be further from that. "We dont want to get rid of her" I blurted out, shortly after questioning if that was the right use of words.

"Oh" she replied getting happier again "Ok" It was upsetting to see how shocked she was by the fact that I was doing what any other normal human should also be doing. Just accepting your kid for who they are.

"We just wanted to see what we were up aginst thats all" I told her, wanting her to understand that I was completely fine with this. Well not fine I mean it was going to be hard, but I was willing and ready to take on the battle. "Pass us some folders and we'll be on our way" I concluded making an effort to smile at her. She handed me the folders and I began to run through my head how I would break it to demi.

Telling Demi was going to be one of the hardest experiences in my life. Just how exactly do you tell someone that they are going to have to relive one of the hardest times of there lives. Demi said that if it turned out Lily did have an eating disorder it wouldn't change anything but how can she be so sure. How does she know that hearing Lily puke up her food isn't going to trigger her.

My final thought was how I was goibg to deal with it if that did happen. How was I meant to help to girls through an eating disorder. What about when Demi goes on tour I can't help lily alone. Worse than that though Demi would be going through it completely on her own on tour.

I had a feeling that these next couple of months were going to be the hardrdt things I would ever have to experience.

(A/N: sorry about this one I dont feel like it was very good. Its pretty late and I want to sleep but I will have another check through tommorow. If you look below you will see I have my social media links. Send me a tweet if you are reading or share the book and tag me for a Retweet/favourite. )

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