Dazed (H.S)

Chapter 35

Angelina

"O my god! What have I done!" I mumbled. I was shaking. The events of last night rushing my mind. How I killed that man? I didn't even knew who he was.

"Calm down Lina" Caroline tried to shut me up.

"Caroline I killed someone!" I screamed.

"You saved yourself!" She protested.

"I don't even remember how many times I slammed his head" I said.

"He must've had a family. What if he had kids? How are the poor little souls going to live?" I asked. I was crying by now. I landed on my knees not caring how much it's going to hurt me.

"Angelina" Caroline spoke hugging me.

"You're burning as hell" Caroline said.

"I'm fine" I whispered crying.

"No Angelina you're having a fever let me go and get you some medicine" she said and rushed out of my room.

After five minutes she came back followed by Harry.

"What happened?" He asked.

"She killed somebody by what she is saying and she is mourning over the fact that she killed someone" Caroline explained wrongly. Harry made an offensive face.

Of course he will. He kills people this is his job. Why would he care?

"Give her the medicines" Harry commanded and Caroline followed. After giving me medicines she got out of my room but Harry was still there.

"Stop your crying" Harry asked.

"I killed someone" I spoke.

"So what you killed someone who was trying to kill you" He said.

"No you don't get it. He must have had a family. What if he had a daughter or a son what would they do? What will his wife do? Omg I'm such a bad person" I cried louder.

"Stop it You're not a bad person. You killed someone its no big deal so stop" he said.

"It's no big deal for you but it's a big deal for me! You kill people everyday you wake up you hurt people! You take away parents from children you take away their childhood! You don't care about others because you don't have a fucking heart or even if it is it's only keeping you alive full of evilness and hate!" I screamed.

"Yes I get it it's no big deal for me! I'm the way I'm. I cannot change the way I'm or the way I act no one can actually! So don't try to teach me something that I'll never learn!"he shouted.

"You killed Lily! You killed my parents! You took away everything from me" I blurted. His eyes widened but then they darkened.

"Yes I killed them what then? I'm not mourning over the fact that I did!" He agreed. No don't please.

When I first came here I used to think that he had no humanity left in him. He was a bloodsucking monster. He was cruel. He didn't cared about others. He didn't care about what others think and feel. He simply don't cares. He is numb. He is dazed.

Today I say I was absolutely right. But what about the times he cared for me. He did. He was sincere. I believed him and I know there's a reason behind all this and I'm going to find it out whatever it takes.

"No you didn't!" I screamed.

"I killed them! with my bare hands you see I don't care I don't give damn shit about it" he said.

"I know you didn't killed Lily" I said standing up.

"How can you say that when I'm telling that I did?" He asked.

"I can see it in your eyes Harry! You loved her! You would have never even thought of killing her!" I said. He started to laugh. He started to laugh louder.

"Angelina I'm not one of your cliche boys who falls in love. My life has been far away from the word love!" He said. This hurts. I didn't wanted to fight more but he spoke again.

"Lily was nothing to me except for a source to take revenge from your father. If she had feelings for me that wasn't my fault. It was completely hers. So don't bloody talk about her again!" He said.

"You know what? that man wanted to save me but I think I didn't wanted to be saved" I spoke and he stormed out of the room.

Today he agreed that he killed my family.

Everything is back to how it was.

I ran to my bed and slumped inside it. I wanted to sleep. I wanted to take my mind off of it. I could feel my body heating up. I was burning indeed.

4 hours later

I couldn't take this anymore. I opened the door to my bedroom and exited it. I couldn't even walk properly.

"Caroline?" I called. No reply she must be sleeping at this time.

"Caroline" I even didn't know where her room was.

I dragged myself down the stairs to the living room no one was there. Why is no one here when I want them to be?

The only option left at the moment was him. But I won't. Then this time legs dragged me to his room.

I didn't wanted to but I was miserable. My body was getting heavier and heavier. When I reached his door I raised my hand to knock it but it opened itself. Not by itself but Harry was there. How did he knew that I was there?

"What happened? Why you look so pale?" He asked.

"Harry I -" I couldn't even compete my whole sentence I fell into his arms.

"You're burning" he spoke. My mouth was dry I couldn't speak even if I wanted to. He picked me up again and laid me on his bed gently.

"I'm calling the doctor" he picked up his phone and I closed my eyes not able bare it anymore. Why do he cares? He should let me burn. How many more times am I going to lose my senses in front of him just like I did right now.

I'm starting to feel a connection to him which I shouldn't be.

I'm starting to forget things I shouldn't be.

I'm starting to stop missing people I should.

I'm starting to stop hating him.

"I don't hate you I never will"

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