Dazed (H.S)

Chapter 41

29th January, 1999

I've never been this happy in my entire lifetime! It is so exciting. I feel like all the love I'm being deprived of my whole life was given back to me more like showered on me all at once and it just won't stop.
I know I love him. I've never been this sure about something in my life. If caring for someone more than you do for yourself, making sacrifices to see them happy, smile when they smile, cry when they cry is love then I'm in love. I am completely and fully in love with Harry Edward Styles.

I was about to tell him that today but something happened. Something I never thought of. I heard my father talking to some gentleman about Styles. Styles as in Harry's family. He was talking about attacking them. He was talking about them with such hate and venom that it made me cringe. How much selfish this man possibly could be?

I asked Seth and Kevin about that and they told me that, Styles are our biggest enemies and father very much hates them. I decided not to tell Harry because I didn't wanted him to get hurt because of me. I know my father he'll do anything to make me suffer and I won't let it happen to him.

"I seriously don't understand when are you going to grow up?" Harry asked with the idk what face.

"Hey! I'm a grown up!" I protested.

"Sure as hell you act as one too" he rolled his eyes.

"I just wanted to have fun!" I said and sneezed.

"And I told you not too. Now you're sick for the next of the week. Enjoy" he said.

"You know what? You're a party popper!" I said and burst into fits of laughter. But he didn't. His face turned serious and sad in a matter of second. Hurt took over his features.

"What?" I asked. He looked at me and shook his head in disapproval.

"Tell me" I pressed.

"Why should I tell you?" This is the weirdest most thing that came out of his mouth.

"Because I think that we've now established the bond where we could share things with each other. But if you don't want to I'm obviously okay with that" I said. I thought we were close enough now but if still he wants to push me away that's on him. He didn't replied. He just walked to the huge window at the corner of my room by the balcony. For at least five minutes he was silent.

"You sounded like Gem" he finally spoke. Now he have another love interest too?

"Who is Gem?" I asked. I was jealous.

"She was" He said looking down. She too is dead. Sometimes I feel so bad for him. One of that sometimes is now. He have no family. He is alone.

"Oh I'm sorry" I said.

"She was murdered" he said

"She seems like someone quite special to you" I asked.

"Yeah she indeed was special. When you spend half of your life with someone they mean something to you" He said.

"What?" I asked.

"She was my elder sister" he said and my eyes widened. He was talking about his sister.

"I'm so sorry I didn't thought-" I was cut off.

"I understood by your facial expressions" he said.

"I know the pain of losing someone close to you" I said.

"Uh Hun?" He hummed.

"When my parents died I was left alone in this whole cruel world. I had no one even though I had my brothers. The truth is that they loved me so much I loved them so much but I never had the feeling of someone who stood by my with every thick and thin. I was left alone in the house. They used to go leave me alone with the housemaids. We used to shift a lot. I didn't have many friends because whenever I tried to make some we used to move. All I felt was darkness around me where once all was light. I bawled my eyes out every night. I started to have nightmares and they got worst time by time" I continued. I don't why I was telling him all this but I felt good taking the heaviness out of my body.