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11 » The Past

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Recap

"Uh, that day, when you stormed out of the dorm and returned late...why did you lash out like that? You never do that"

"Uh, well, it's a long story" I took a deep breath "Here it goes..."

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"I was 17 back then," I started "still in high school. I had two amazing best friends, Louis and Jake and a perfect girlfriend, Jane, whom I loved so much. But..."

I drew in a deep breath, trying to stop the tears from flowing. Harry noticed this and grabbed my hand, intertwining our fingers together.

"You don't have to tell this if you don't want to" Harry said.

I shook my head, tightening our fingers together.

"Things started going downhill after I found out Jane's pregnant. She said it was my child. I wasn't ready though. I was only 17 and had a whole life ahead of me. I didn't want the baby at first but I started getting fond of it. And that's when I got the biggest shock of my life"

Harry squeezed my hand, encouraging me to continue.

"I was walking through the hallways in the school when I heard Jane talking to Tessa, her best friend. Jane was saying that the baby was not mine but...Jake's"

"Your best friend?!" Harry gasped.

"Yeah, my so called best friend. I confronted them about it and they didn't even deny it. Instead, they said Jane had been cheating on me with Jake being my back for months. I was devastated. I can't believe my own best friend, whom I trusted so much could do that. I haven't talked to them ever since"

"Oh god! I so sorry!" Harry sobbed "You don't deserve this! I am so horrible! What I said to you was...was disgusting!"

"Harry..." I said, pulling him into an embrace "Don't cry now. You didn't know"

"But that isn't an excuse to say those things to you!" Harry sobbed into my chest.

"Calm down, Haz" I said, rubbing his back soothingly.

Hmm, Haz. Nice. I think I'll call him that.

"I can't believe that you forgave me so easily, Zayn" Harry whispered, breaking the hug "But I don't think I will be able to forgive myself"

"Haz..." I whispered, lifting his head by putting my thumb and index finger under his chin "I've forgiven you, you should forgive yourself too"

"Ok" Harry mumbled before he placed his head on my chest again, closing his eyes and taking deep breaths.

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I was awaken by soft whimpers and cries. I groaned while I rolled over and looked at my bedside clock.

1:20 a.m.

I frown in confusion and looked towards Harry. The poor lad was rolling in bed, whimpering and crying. His whole body was covered in sweat.

I got up and tip toed my way towards him and gently shook him awake.

"Harry, Haz, wake up"

Harry jolted awake. He slowly sat up in bed and looked at me with fear in his eyes.

"You were having a bad dream" I informed him.

"Yeah, we were at Chres' party
a-and that guy he...y-you didn't come to save me a-and that guy he-he-" Harry broke into violent sobs, his whole body shaking. I pulled him into a tight embrace, rubbing his back soothingly.

"Shh, it's OK Haz. Stop crying, love" I whispered. Something in my chest was hurting, seeing Harry like this. It felt like someone had plunged a knife straight into my heart and was twisting it mercilessly.

I kept whispering sweet nothings to him until he calmed down. His tears stopped and his breathing became even.

"You okay, now?" I asked softly.

"Better" Harry said with a sniff. He was still shaking though and I didn't want to leave him alone.

"Wanna cuddle?" I asked, removing some hair from his face.

"Please" Harry whispered.

I gently laid him down before laying beside him. I pulled the covers over us and pulled him close.

"Good night, Haz. Sleep tight. I am here for you"

"Good night, Zayn. Thank you"