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17 » Resurfacing Feelings

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Recap

And as Jane's lips touched mine, all of my worries flew out of the window and I kissed her back as sweetly.

I may or may not still have feelings for her. Maybe not as strong as I used to, but I do...
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Zayn

"Hey! You are back!" Harry smiled when I entered the dorm, but I ignored him.

"Zayn?"

Out of the corner of my eye, I could see Harry frown. But I didn't say anything, because I know if I would, it would come out harsher than I intend.

"Hey, you okay?" Harry asked softly, touching my arm ever so gently.

"Yes" I mumbled, not able to look at him in his eyes.

"No, you are not" Harry whispered "Don't you trust me?"

"Of course I do! It's just that..." I shook my head slightly "Let's sleep"

"Zayn..." Harry whispered, looking at me worriedly but didn't press it further.

He slowly laid down on his bed and I laid down beside him. We have been sharing a bed for some time and to be honest, I can't go to sleep without Harry in my arms now.

I was broken out of my thoughts when Harry buried his face in my chest. I wrapped my arms around him and, unconsciously, a small smile crept over my face.

"I kissed Jane" I mumbled.

"What?!" Harry's head shot up and he looked up at me with surprise.

"More like, Jane kissed me but yeah, we kissed"

After my statement, something entered into his eyes. I can't tell what it was, but it was there.

"And...?" Harry mumbled, looking down.

"Uh I don't know what to feel. I still have feeling for her. But...I don't want to let her in so easily after what she did"

I buried my face in Harry's neck as silent tears fell out. I am feeling so helpless and confused that it's frustrating.

"Hey, don't cry" Harry said softly and was it just me or Harry's voice just wavered?

"What am I supposed to do?" I sniffed.

"Just...just listen to your heart, Z" Harry whispered, placing his hand over my chest where my heart is "It will lead you"

"I...thanks" I smiled.

"Your welcome"

Harry's voice cracked a little at the end and he quickly turned his back towards me.

"Haz...What?" I frowned, confused.

"Good night" Harry whispered, with no room left for argument.

"Good night..."

And finally I wasn't able to stay awake but before slipping into darkness, I heard a distinct sound.

The sound of Harry crying.

[A/N : Should I do a Harry's POV?]