Returning Home

Part 14

Steve entered his room to change into his pyjamas and saw Natasha waiting for him. She was wearing one of his favorite nighties.

"Nat? " he asked confused.

"Wanda is with Tom and Joey. They are asleep, she'll call me if they need me" she said, standing up, and walking close to him. She closed the door and locked it, then wrapped her arms around his neck.

"I want you too" she said, seductively.

He wanted to kiss her so bad, but he resisted.

"No, Nat" he said, his hands on her waist, "not now, not until you at least recall who you are. I love you. My love isn't all about intimacy ".

"Steve, I want this, I want us. You love me, and I feel something deep for you. So, why the wait. Stop hurting yourself " she insisted.

"As much as I want to crush those lips of yours and wet that neck with my kisses, and get deep inside of you. I can't Nat, not now. Please, don't do this, it hurts more" he said.

Natasha lowered her eyes, she wanted to give him everything he deserves, but his love was greater then everything else.

"Can we at least sleep together? " she asked innocently.

"Of course we can. I'll bring Tom and Joey, they might get scared if they woke up. They need you much more then I do at the moment. " he said.

She nodded, and lay down wearing the night gown. Steve returned with their twins in his arms. Natasha hugged both, and Steve lay down beside her, hugging her waist.

"I have talked to Dr. Strange, we are going there tomorrow. I hope you are ready " he said

"I am. " she said, though she wasn't actually sure if she was.

"Goodnight " she said.

"Goodnight " he said kissing her neck gently, that made her smile.

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Steve and Natasha dropped James and Anthony to school. Maggie, Tom and Joey were with Tony and Sam, while Wanda accompanied them to Dr. Strange's.

"Now, Mrs. Rogers. I cannot help you,  if you don't help yourself " Dr. Strange said.

"What do I have to do? " she asked.

Steve stood by her side, holding her hand.

"Natasha, please forgive me, if anything goes wrong" Wanda said nervously.

"Nothing would go wrong Wanda, we trust you. And you aren't alone" Steve assured her.

Wanda nodded and looked at Dr. Strange.

"So we begin? " Dr. Strange asked.

They all nodded, Steve squeezed Natasha's hand.

Stephen Strange stood behind Natasha and put his hands on her head. Steve sat down, still holding her hand. Wanda's hands were on Natasha's head side, not touching though, and she started concentrating.

"Look inside yourself. Find your heart, in the sea of memories, get lost" Dr. Strange said.

Natasha's eyes were closed, and she was concentrating hard.

"Who are you? " Strange asked.

Natasha was silent for a moment, she didn't answer, and Strange asked several times.

"Name? " he asked in Russian.

"Natalia" she finally replied, "Natalia Romanova" she replied.

After that, she started speaking in Russian, Steve held her hand firmly.

Wanda started shaking, and Natasha started screaming.

"Don't loose yourself!!! Focus!! " Strange yell.

"James!!!! James!! Save me" Natasha yell.

Steve was scared, he looked at Wanda who was scared too.

"Noooo, noo" she finally said in English.

"What is happening? " Steve asked scared.

"Ahh!!! James.. Help... " Natasha was shaking.

Just then Bucky rushed into the room, and Steve looked at him in horror.

He sat down beside Natasha and took her free hand, "I am here, Natalia.. " he said something in Russian.

Steve frowned, Wanda was shaking bad.

"Stop it, its hurting her, stop it" Wanda yell.

Strange stopped, lifting his hands off her head. Wanda stopped with her movements too.

And Natasha's head fell on Bucky's shoulder.

"Natalia, look at me" he said, and then he spoke in Russian.

Natasha slowly opened her eyes, and blinked, she had tears in her tears, she was panting.

"James... James you are back? " she asked in Russian, no one understanding except them.

"Yes, I am, I am Natalia, I will never leave you again" he said, cupping her face.

"They sterilized me James. I can never be a mother again" she said.

Bucky looked at Steve, who was angry and hurt, still holding her hand, to which she was so oblivious.

"Natasha!! " Steve said, and she turned to look at him, "Natasha? What do you remember? ".

Natasha was confused for a moment, Steve was loosing his cool, he didn't want her to forget whatever they had already gotten cleared.

"Let her have a moment" Strange said.

Natasha sighed, she took deep breaths and then looked at Steve again.

"Steve? " she said.

"Yes? Natasha? " Steve held her hand with both his now.

"They sterilized me Steve. This way? I... It was so painful, I... My.. My babies.. I have five babies... Take me to my children.. I want to see my babies" she said, then she turned to face Bucky, "James, James, I am not sterile, they failed.. I have five children James... I have five babies... James I lo... " but she stopped. She was married to Steve, she had his babies and yet Bucky was still there. She got confused.

"Natasha! Let's go home" Steve said, standing up. She looked at him, and nodded. He helped her up, and then taking her waist, he walked her out.

Natasha turned to look at Bucky again, he tried to smile, but couldn't, and then she looked away.

Natasha was weak to walk properly, so Steve carried her in his arms. She rested his head on his shoulder and closed her eyes. Part of her regretting that she came for this. Her memories were too painful to be recalled. But the pleasure of knowing all that and still having her children, a happy family,  was out of the world.

"Take me home, Steve. And fast" she said.

"I am, I am taking you home" he said.

She rested her head on the seat, as they sped away.

*****
Bucky has his hopes high again.
Poor Nat has relive her painful memories. What happened next? Do give your reviews.