Always and forever

Jitters

Tomorrow is my first day at West Field high, to say I'm nervous is an understatement. I'm most likely gonna have no friends.

Before I left and before everything went down, something I'm not looking forward to getting into, I was social, I had tons of friends, sometimes I would even drink and I was only 15!

But now, I tend to keep to myself. I didn't have any friends at my old school, they thought I was some weird geek. I mean I can't really blame them, I always had good grades kept conversations short, never raised my hand. I just wasn't a talkative person. At all. So anyone that knew me in the past will be in for a big surprised since I'm not the same party girl.

"Sweetie, are you listening to anything I'm saying"? I heard my mom say in that soft tone she always uses.

"No sorry mom, what were you saying"? I pushed my thoughts aside and put my attention on her.

"I said, I know that your nervous about having to see people from your past, especially Greyson. But everything will be fine". And that is why i love my mom. She can look at me and immediately know what I'm thinking about and always says the right words to calm me down.

"Thanks mom I really do appreciate you" I said because she is the most important person in my life.

She smiles and goes back to cooking dinner. I wonder what he'll think about me. I mean nothings really changed about me, I'm still the same height and the same face. Kinda. The only thing that's really changed is my now long hair. When I was 15 and younger I never grew out my hair. It's was always right under or above my ears. I liked the edgy hairstyles back then. And I used to wear eyeliner on my waterline and also wing my eyeliner. I was actually pretty good at makeup but now I suck and I don't bother putting any on.

Why am I even thinking about if he'll even think about about. He will never love me again. He hates me.

After dinner, I go up to my room take a shower and go to bed. I was very tired. I'm tired a lot lately.

Next morning

I woke up and I really didn't want to get up. I was honestly really scared and nervous.
I did my morning routines and started getting dressed.

I wore a black and grey sweater, dark jeans, and a pair of converse. Nothing special. I wore my hair down and I was done.

Here goes nothing.

What she wore on the first day is up top^^ minus the purse.