Don't Act Bad. You're A Softy. {Yoonmin} [Book 1]

The Fresh Start: Chapter 19

This is where it begins.. Lonely, lost, forgotten, untrustful.

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I've tried to upload on Instagram, for Jin.

But I couldn't do it..

Little did I know, I didn't notice, I was changing myself, completely, into something I wasn't. And I was blinded by the hurt a and pain to see, what I was becoming and how much I changed..

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FacelessJamless: Update: Brown hair.. :P

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In almost a 4 months, I met Jin. He even told me I changed, not the good kind, either..

I didn't know what he was talking about..  

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My life in these few years was a lot. I went from innocent kid to feeling like I'm run from the cops on a daily. I felt like a bad kid. Sometimes I still wonder what I would've been like if I stayed. Would I have been the way I am/was? Or was this the only way to kid the pain I was feeling constantly? 

I didn't know.. 

My mind was blocking out the heart. My brain was somewhere else..The things I did, reminded me of him, and how badly I wanted him to change, but I was the one changing.. 

I turned bad..

'Don't Act Bad'

I couldn't help it..

I keep wondering where the others are, how are they, where have they been, have they been okay?

My brain was too full for me to do anything right..

Wasn't completely my fault..

Jin had been visiting me more often. He told me Namjoon was being suspicious and that he couldn't see me as much anymore.. 

So, here I was..

Alone. 

The only thing I could think of making myself happy is..

Acting bad..

xx Jimin

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Hi. It's been a week since I've written in this book.. I've come a long way. Still bad..

I recently turned my old phone back on. It's loaded with messages and calls.

From him..

I miss him.

How has he been?