Shattered Dreams: Forth Beam Love Story

Part 1: Unexpectedly

Beam's POV

It was saturday afternoon, I was sitting alone in the park, enjoying my favorite chocolate cake and a bottle of ice cold tea. I was enjoying the moment, the place, the ambiance and the fresh air. Enjoying my off duty, since I been on call for almost 72 hours.

Then suddenly a couple caught my attention. They were so sweet. You can see the compasion, the love, the special connection, and the magic.

Memories went flashing back. So fast that I did not even realize that tears have started to fall. I remember the days when I was that happy.

FLASHBACK...

"Beam, hurry!" he said.

"Wait, just a minute. I am almost done". I immediately replied.

We had a date. A candlelit dinner, with our favorite foods laid out on the table. Actually, we would just eat on our rooftop but it seemed that it would rain that we might not see our favorite view - stars.

We both love to see the stars. We planned of exploring the whole universe and finding out if there really was a possibility that we could live on Mars. We shared the same interest. We played sports together, we go out partying till dawn, we both hate the lazy weekends.

He is the man every guy and girl dreams of. Honestly, he was my dream boy. I saw myself with him in the future, or if there would be a possibility that it would not be him, i would choose someone with almost similar features as him.

We were together for several years. After graduating from college. I manage to get a full time residency at a hospital near our house together with my two best friend Pha and Kit, but we are assigned in different departments and Forth is currently working in one of the finest engineering firms in Thailand.

Our lives is simple and perfect, being with him for a couple of years was not smooth sailing, sometimes we fight for little things, we argue over a simple misunderstanding but day will not pass without reconciliation, it was him who always initiate the first step, he will say sorry even if it is my fault. I did not even thought we would be apart. But life has its own way of making things work, indeed it is full of surprises.

The real purpose of our dinner was he would tell me something, since we promised that there would be no secrets between us. I was too excited that I did not bother to ask even a single hint. He said it was a surprise, and I really love surprises, he knew that.

"Beam, I know we have been together for so long. I want you to know how happy I am that you came into my life." He started the conversation with overwhelming introduction.

"You know that the feeling is mutual." I quickly replied.

"Wait, listen to me first."

"I enjoy your company a lot. Your smiles make my days complete. Your laughter paints my life with colors. Your tears are my weakness."

He paused for a while, then he began to cry. I did not know what was wrong. I thought that date was just one of our usual dinner dates together since the time we had meet.

"I'm sorry Beam, we will no longer be together."

I was shocked. I felt like I lost myself for a second and that my heart stopped beating. Tears began to fill my eyes, I wanted to shout, but I could not. I could not even utter even a single word.

"Why?" That was the only word that came out of my mouth.

"Am I not good? Am I not enough for you to stay?  Tell me..."

I was bursting in tears that I could not breathe well. I was running out of oxygen and everything was blurred. I could not control my emotions the way I always did. Then the whole world became pitch - black...

When I opened my eyes, I searched for him immediately without noticing that I was already in my room. I saw Pha and Kit rushes towards my direction. Yo and Mingkwan are at the bedside as well. Why are they here in my room, in our room. Oh my God, Forth!

"Where is Forth?" the first words that I said.

"Beam, how are you feeling? Pha interjected checking my condition.

"Pha, where is Forth? I just had a bad dream, I need to see him and tell him about it." I can see Pha's expression changes from concern to guilt. I glance at Kit even he had the same expression. I look at Yo sobbing at Mingkwan's back and Ming who are looking face down admiring the floor since the conversation started.

"Guys, come on, cut the fuck off. Where is Forth, I need to see him!" My voice is raising with a hint of annoyance and fear.

"I need to see that bastard, Forth come out, its not a good joke" cracks and shierks can be heard in the mixture of my tone, little clear fluid starts to form at the corner of my eyelids.

"Pha, Kit, please tell me this is just a bad dream, this is not real" I was sobbing and trying to fight tears that falls uncontrollably in my cheeks. I look at their faces and they still have that mixture of gloomy and guilt expression.

He went away.  He left without saying goodbye. All I have are just memories - both bitter and sweet. I was completely loss for thought acknowledging the fact that this is real and Forth is gone.

"Why? Am I not worty of any explanation. It hurts so much." Pha and Kit hug and hold the broken man without moving an inch, silently crying and hoping that they can ease the pain their best friend is feeling.

PRESENT TIME...

Tears fall involuntary between my pale cheeks, after 3 years I'm still affected by his memories, the pain is still there. How could he forget the man he love the most.

I wished the same thing would not happen to the couple I saw in the park. I knew how hard it was, too painful that one would even think of wishing not to see tomorrow. The wound was engraved in my heart and scars were still visible.

It was hard to build my dreams again because it was crashed to pieces the day Forth left me, the day I experienced my first heartbreak.

Hours pass and I decided to go back to the old house. Trying to forget the memories that still haunting me.

I was taken aback when I saw the figure at the doorway, how could I not forget his silhouette, his stature, his face, his smile and his eyes. Taking small step nearer, three years have pass and he still looks the same.

"Forth...." I uttered silently...

AUTHORS NOTE:

First chapter done, comments are highly appreciated, if you like it don't forget to vote...

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