Shattered Dreams: Forth Beam Love Story

Part 15: Unprecedentedly

Phana's POV

I've been calling Beam for the nth time already but none of my calls connects on the other line. I was furious and deadly mad right now. The reason for this insanity is that from what I've heard from N'Yo and his best friend N'Ming, Beam gave Forth a chance to redeem himself. Yes you've heard me right, I don't know what to do anymore with Beam, he's a lot different from the Beam I knew, why didn't he consulted me and Ai'Kit first before making such abrupt decisions. I know I may sound like an overprotective best friend but I can't help it, recovering from a shattered relationship is hard to dealt with, Beam is lucky enough to surpass it at first but compromising with the same person who made him fell like hell and even decided to make an unjust decision of taking his own life, you've got to be kidding me. I need to knock some senses on him.

I've sit on the couch with a frowning face as I've redial the number again and again; I've put the phone on speaker mode while I starred silently on the ceiling.

"Beam, please pick up the phone" I uttered silently as the ringing continuously takeover the atmosphere of the room.

"P'Pha?" the soft voice of N'Yo resonates on the air like a melody to my ear; I've woke up from my deep thought, shake my head a little and tilt my gazed at the door. He was standing there with a smile on his face, I bet he will scold me for my undeniable expression I'm currently projecting in my face right now, it's a mixture of confuse, mesmerized, rage, captivated, mad and trouble-some look. He walked up to me and sit beside me as he give me warm hugs and buried his face at my chest, I've bet my heartbeat is pretty ecstatic right now.

"P'Pha, what are you thinking? May I know what's bothering you?" N'Yo asked still resting his head on my chest. I took my time answering his questions, I inhaled deeply but I was cut in words before I can even utter a sound.

"It's P'Beam right?" N'Yo continues his affirmation as I've tighten my embrace on his soft subtle body, I've kissed his hair and inhale his scent. N'Yo clearly knows me so well, my worries and doubts.

"I'm just worried, he didn't tell me about this" I've said still trembling with anxiety, the picture of consoling Beam projects on my mind, out of us three, Beam is the fragile one, I've seen how he reacted to such events in his life, when his parents got divorced way before middle school years, I've seen how he takes the situation explicitly, he falls into depression and it took him several years to regain himself and the heartless and cold Beam was born, during those days Beam will only have a blunt and unsharpened expression thru the different challenges and problems he face in the remainder of his middle school years but when Forth cross his life during our college days, it surely made an impact in his life as the ice in Beam's heart completely melts and Beam became vulnerable again, warmer expression, positive outlook in life and optimistic well-being.

Being with Forth for the rest our college days surely upgrades Beam in the best possible way but Forth also is the one that tears Beam apart when he suddenly left Beam without a word, now the heartless and cold Beam was once again entering the picture. I don't know what spells to chant but I think this situation needs some drastic measures, Forth is back and wants to regain his love for Beam, I did not even talked to Forth yet but I'm pretty sure that there is something else, I've seen it in his eyes there is something that prevents him from confessing, I swear, I will be in the bottom of this. I had enough of this situation; it is stressing me so much.

"So what are you gonna do?" N'Yo asked, as I've caressed his soft hair while my other hand redials Ai'Beam's number. Honestly, I don't know what to do; I can't even think straight regarding this matter. I was lost for words; I don't know how to answer his question.

"Please tell me and promise me you will not do something stupid?" N'Yo said as he lifted his head and locked his gaze towards mine, those round dark orbs that I grow accustomed to. I looked at his eyes and his face projects a concerned expression.