Expectations vs. Realities (MayWard)

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Kwento naman ng isa pang friend ko nung college. Emegesh! Kaloka. Pag-ibig pa more! 💖

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I've been wondering why she hasn't talked to me for few days now. Bakit kaya? Hindi naman kami nag-away. I'm sure of that. The last time I checked, we spent our 1st anniversary together. Ang saya nun kasi after a few weeks of not seeing each other, sobrang sulit na magkasama kami to celebrate.

Yes, we've been together for a year but I must say that it has been really hard for the both of us. I mean, yung love madali lang eh kasi we both love each other, no doubt. Pero yung circumstances? Yun talaga.

Like now, hindi ko nanaman siya macontact. Since we're two long bus rides apart, I cannot just visit her agad-agad. Dapat paplanuhin muna. Alam niya yan eh, kaya naman nagtataka ako. Before, one or two days lang kapag bigla nalang siyang hindi magpaparamdam with her valid and understandable reasons. Pero it has already been five days, come on.

I'm really worried. May nagawa ba ako? That, I do not know. Well, I guess it has to do with her parents again. Yeah, her very strict parents.

I've met her at the university before when I used to study sa city nila since my parents can afford to send me there naman to study. Kagagraduate ko lang actually at siya malapit na rin naman. Eto, I'm back to my hometown na and handling our family business. Six months na kaming magkalayo kaya medyo mahirap but it isn't just that.

1 solid year but her parents never liked me though.

Alam mo yun? I've always tried to reach out to them. As much as possible, sinisiguro ko na hindi napupuyat yung anak nila sa kakatext o kakatawag saakin. Yung hindi makipag-away sakanya, madali lang eh 'cause we don't have anything to argue about. We're good. I always make sure to send her back home, na she's safe na makauwi. Sinusundo ko yan noon araw-araw pero wala parin, ang casual parin ng mga magulang niya sakin. Ewan ko ba.

Sabagay, nung naging kami pa nga lang na-sanction siya eh. Her mom is a disciplinarian. She got curfews that caused us not to get out at night or even during weekends wala rin. But yeah, we managed to adjust to it. Okay lang, we love each other naman.

Yeah, too ideal maybe, but we really did. Kahit pa her mom has set a lot of rules na hindi pwede ganto, ganyan - we were still able to follow.

Ano ba yan! Why do I feel emotional again this time? Kasi naman eh. Bakit ba hindi siya nagpaparamdam?! Bigla tuloy akong napapa-throwback sa mga naranasan namin. I can't avoid overthinking in a way. Ayaw niya na ba ako? Is she not allowed to see me anymore? Ano ba talaga? Are we gonna trash it all now, huh?

Asan ka na ba, May? I miss you so much. Ugh. You're driving me crazy.

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Paulit-ulit ko na ngang tinatawagan pero wala pa din. Puntahan ko na kaya? Baka kung ano nang nangyari dun eh. Haynako, ang hirap, hindi na nga ako nakakatulog ng maayos 'cause I have been worried for days, really.

But I'm not sure if they'll gonna let me see her kasi nung monthsary nga namin, we celebrated it on secret. Everything nalang is a secret when it comes to her parents.

Hey, what of she's not telling me something? Kaya siya hindi nagpaparamdam is because she's hiding something from me? Ang hinala ko pinagbawalan siya, or maybe she lost her phone. Things like that. But secrets from each other? I don't know. We don't do that. Mas lalo tuloy akong nag-ooverthink.

Alright, I'll check her out tomorrow and that's final.

"Anak, gising na. May bisita ka dali. Matutuwa ka, sigurado." My mom woke me up. It's a new day. Sino namang bisita? I only have one person in mind pero that seems impossible. She haven't gone here, like ever.