8/27/18
5:47
Blair's POV:
I kept thinking about Grayson's question as I got ready for dance. I can't even believe I let him get as far as he did the other day. That should've never happened. No one has ever gotten that far.
I should've stopped him.
But I ended up driving myself to dance for group private and duet. At dance, there was nothing new. We just talked during duet for 20 minutes of our 30 minute lesson. And for group, a little bit more than half of us showed up because no one knows how to communicate.
After we ran the dance a few times, I sat in the mirror. I was pissed. I actually wanted to dance today and let out my feelings. I don't how I feel about Grayson or why I did what I did. I mean he's a sweet heart, now that I have him a chance, but I feel like there was a reason as to why I didn't like him in the first place. My friend Blake walked over to me and sat down with me.
"Where have you been for the past few days?" she said.
"I've been hanging out with new people," I said.
"A boy? A girl?"
"Some boys," she gave me a look. "Okay, fine! The twins," I sighed.
"Why? What happened?"
"Grayson. He wanted to hang out, and, uh— we uh— we kissed," I lied. Not entirely though.
"What?!"she exclaimed. "You kissed Grayson?" I covered her mouth when she uttered that last part.
"Keep it down," I whisper yelled.
I looked around and everyone was looking straight at us. And then turned away.
Damn. That was embarrassing.
"I can't believe you. I thought you've always hated him. Not even that, you let him do that," she whispered to me.
"It just happened and now I don't know what to do."
"Well was it good?"
"Yeah, I mean, I'm not gonna lie," I said. "But, Blake can we talk about this at DQ later tonight?"
"Okay. I can yell at you then," she laughed.
"Alright," I said.
7:38
The two of us pulled into the Dairy Queen parking lot in separate cars. I went to grab the spoon door handle when another hand got to it first. I looked back to see who it was, realizing that it was Ethan.
"By the way, your ass looks so good today," he commented.
"Damn, Blake," he said. "You should come over later and help me with this problem I have."
I scoffed at him and just walked away with Blake following.
We walked in and ordered two cookies and cream blizzards. Blake went to go find a table while I got our ice cream. As I waited, I felt someone wrap their arms around me from behind.
I could tell it was Ethan. He whispered in my ear, "You should come over tonight and I could teach you a few things?"
"Sure," I smirked.
"Really?"
"No!" I elbowed him in the stomach and his grip on me loosened. "You're an actual pig, Ethan."
He fell to the floor, holding his stomach.
I felt kind of bad for doing that because he's still a human, but he's a pig. I stepped over him to grab our food and go.
I walked over to Blake with our blizzards. She asked, "What was all of that about?"
"Just Ethan being an ass."
"Oh. So like usual?"
I laughed. "You still think he's cute, don't you?"
"Yeah," she dragged out.
"But what's the big deal if I might have feelings for Gray? They're twins; they look the same."
"I don't know; it's just something about Grayson that I don't like. I'm just looking out for you B."
"Ethan is ten times worse. What do you see in him?"
"I like bad boys," she shrugged.
"If you fall for him you do realize that we cannot associate anymore, right?"
"But I still think he's cute."
"Wow," I shook my head. "Trust me, he's not what you think."
There's a lot of secrets that I've kept from Blake and I know that there's a ton she hasn't told me. There's things I wish I hadn't done that she knows about. But there's two things she could never know I did, with who and when. If she found out about them, she'd never forgive me.
*****
"Are you sure no one's home?" I said.
"Yeah. No one's home, baby," he whispered in my ear.
He pushed me down on the bed, hovering over me. I pressed my lips to his, passionately kissing him. I couldn't get enough of the feeling of his soft lips against mine. His hands tightly gripped my waist as his tongue passed over my bottom lip. I let him in, our tongues battling for dominance.
He began to lift off my shirt.
"You're so beautiful baby."
He kissed down the valley of my breast and my stomach, while he held down my hips. He stopped once he got down to the waist band of my stomach. He forcefully pulled down my leggings, revealing my black panties.
As he pulled down my underwear, my mind told me I was ready, but my heart told me no. Before I knew it, my breathing started to hitch and my mind started to race. My heart started beating uncontrollably fast.
I could feel my throat start to become tight and my eyes began to well up with tears. Tears ran down my face and I began to whimper.
As soon as he noticed, he stopped what he was doing. He cupped my face and said, "What's wrong baby?"
"I-I can't do this Ethan. I'm n-not ready. I'm sorry," I cried into his shoulder.
Once I collected myself, I began to get dressed.
"What are you doing?"
"I need to go, Eth," I said walking out of the door.
*****
a/n: this sucked i'm sorry
that last part is a flash back.
