The possibility of us

Chapter 34

While walking around campus, Zach saw Zhaira whose hands are wrapped in someone else's arms. Zhaira noticed and went towards him.

"Zach! Hi!"

"Hi"

With his eyebrow raised out of his confusion.

"This is Peter, my boyfriend"

"Boyfriend mo?"

"Nice to meet you Zach oh babe I have to go may practice pa"

"Alright babe, I'll follow you there"

Zach walked out on her, but she followed him wherever he goes.

"Zach, wait up!"

"Boyfriend?! Zhaira are you even allowed to have a boyfriend?"

"Zach, you are starting to sound like my father"

"Kasi Seryoso! Ilang taon kapa lang? Sixteen? With that Peter no less! Do you even know him?"

"He's the son of the owner of this school?"

"Ah kayabagay kayo ganun ba? For all you know isa ka langsakoleksyonniya"

"That's not it Zach. He's just misunderstood."

"Maybe! But, maybe, not!"

He walked out on me that day. And whenever I visited their school and stumbled upon him, he avoided me. It pains me when he does that. I used to have him all to myself and now I have his scholarship and new friends to compete with. I'm such a mess that even if I envy the people around him, I showed people no interest of bettering myself. I accepted my being the way it is and was hoping that Zach would do the same. That even if time and changes drifted us apart, there will always be that something that will pull us back together. No matter how unstable I am. I tried to improve myself, for Zach, but when I took the first step someone blocks the way. My so young and vulnerable self, would do anything to save the love of her life, even if it means sacrificing her own.

After visiting Zach one day at his school, Peter came up to me and said terrifying things. His father owns the school where Zach is also studying. Powerful as they are that's why Peter can get out of any trouble he's in too. And it's not far fetch that they can twist things in a snap of their finger.

"Hey! Zhaira right?"

I know who he is because he and his family is always invited in a society ball. And I know how boastful, he is that's why I tried my best to neglect his advances.

'Yup. What do you want?"

"You. I want you"

"Excuse me? Just because you heard a lot of messy things about me doesn't mean I have a low standard of boys"

"Well, wala naman akong pakealam doon. But I always get what I want"

"Then this might be your first! Congratulations"

"Oppps! Saglitlang. Zachary, he's your friend right? He's very famous around here and I don't like it"

"What's your point?"

"Hindi ko siya papakealaman if"

"If what?"

"If you'll be my girl"

I said yes to him. He had this background of having someone beaten because of his envy and the boy almost died. I can't let that happen to Zach. I can't let nanay Rosa lose another love of her life because of me. Not Zach. No one touches my Zach. So I decided to say yes. After all, people's reality of me is somehow true. I'm an unwanted and a walking disaster.

I stood up against my father regarding Peter. He said he's not convinced of me having feelings for the guy. If he knew my reasons, and that is Zach he would take away Zach away from me furthermore. And I can't stand the thought of it. Masakit na sa akin ang nasusulyapan ko nalang siya, ano pa kaya kung papalayuin siya ng tuluyan. So I kept my secret all to myself. Even if dad was angry and even if Zach despised the idea. All I know is that time, I am doing something right for his sake.

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It broke me. I was devastated. I was struggling to find a way to let her see that the future is brighter if we work together but she sees things otherwise. She chose to grope in darkness, even if I tried to poke holes to give her light. Seeing her, all being intimate with another boy that time squeezes my heart to death. Gusto kongsumabog. Gusto kongmagwala. Gusto kongsapakin si Peter. Murahinsiyang todo for taking away the girl of my dreams. She was too young to be fooled and broken by some skunk like him. I am doing my best to protect  especially from  being with someone of a low character as Peter. 

I wanted to say how I feel for her,  but I know words aren't enough to fix things. We were so young and confuse and unable to stand for ourselves. I have to prove it to her and his family as I grow older and much capable. But I guess I'm the only one who sees the possibility of our future. Who dreams that may be, may be we were meant to be as one.