Partes De Mi

The Impossibility of Us

I wasn't prepared.

I wasn't informed.

You came along, unexpectedly.

I am just an ordinary girl.

Still, nothing special,

boring as what others say.

I love being with myself;

No pairs of eye to judge me,

Just me breathing,

in my own kind of bubble.

Back then, I was scared and doubtful,

failing to notice the hero in me.

And yeah... I'm not even confident

with my own shape.

So, I had to keep my feelings for you

behind closed doors.

Because I believe my existence

appeals nothing to you.

There's really no good in goodbye

since we have to go our separate ways.

I took my own path.

And you took yours.

I did try to walk on my own pace.

But I stayed in the safest spot

waiting for you to pass by,

just in case you'll make a detour.

So I wait, and wait and wait,

until my aching heart finally gave up.

I struggled putting you out of my mind,

even though there are times

when you'd still popped up in my dreams.

Nevertheless, I kept moving on.

Step by step. Day by day.

Until one day, I woke up;

And your name is the only thing

that I can remember about you.

Fate somehow played a trick on me.

Because after six years,

here you are.

It was good to see you again.

Actually, it wasn't just good.

It was great.

I couldn't find any words to say.

But to tell you honestly,

I was over the moon.

I was the happiest girl in the world.

Stars began to align,

roars of thunder became subtle,

as the waves of the ocean

turned into lullabies.

God knows how much I've missed you.

Did you know that?

You really have no idea at all.

I thought it was finally you.

I was hoping then.

Well... I guess I was wrong.

Because along the way,

something didn't feel quite right.

I miscalculated your moves,

and it's partly my fault.

Every time you're near,

it felt so awkward.

I always get exhausted,

and I don't know why.

Maybe because your silence

is slowly killing me.

Which made me realize

that it's impossible for you

to notice someone like me.

I knew it from the start

because you never look at me

the way I look at you.

Even my opinions

Don't matter to you anyway.

The idea of us wouldn't ever work.

That's how reality hit me.

It badly hurts so much.

It felt like I was scattered

into millions of pieces.

But what can I do?

It's your heart to decide and not mine.

So, I made a decision to let go.

Of all my feelings,

of all my pains and longing.

It's easy to say but it's damn hard to do.

Yet I've got to do this for myself,

or else I will be forever trapped,

falling for the wrong one

and missing the right one for me.

I will still be here,

glancing at you from time to time.

But don't worry.

I will not get on your way.

Someday I will be over you.

Just please, give me some time to heal.

And if I'm ready,

I will surely run away from you.

I swear.