chapter 1
I was fighting the urge to scream at him an tell him to stop to leave me alone. I never asked for this, an I don't want it. He really thought that he was helping me. He was far from right all he was doing was hurting me an causing me pain. I was confused I have never been this confused befor an I didn't like it.
He looked into my eyes but I couldn't read his face nor his eye's. I usally always could he never hid what he was feeling from me he was an open book. He grabbed my wrist as his fingers ran along me deep cuts I yelped out in pain. I could feel them starting to bleed. They have been bruning an re-opeaning all day today it was annyoing. As soon as the plea left my dry soar throught he let go an he had regret an terror in his eye's as he relized I had started bleeding. Finally he was letting me see threw him.
He stuttered out. "April im-im sorry I-"
"No, stop I don't care!" I screamed at him. "Stop pretending to care stop using me an please stop telling me you love me if you really did love me then you would leave me alone!"
I saw the hurt I his eye's but as soon as it came it was gone. He was trying to hide his feelings he didn't want to let me see his pain. I felt a little bad for hurting him, but he didn't understand how much he was hurting me this conversation was going to cause me a mental break down later tonight.
As I turned to walk away from him I heard him mumbel something under his breath that I couldn't recall, but I also didn't care I wantedto leave befor he could run after me trying to persuade me to fall for him to be swooning over those amazing crystal sky blue eye's those plumb lips that were always mocking me everything about him made me want to stop an let him hold me. Let him run his hands down my hair along my cheak along every inch of my body
As quickly as the thoughts came they went as I pushed them to the back of my head. I started walking faster. The wind hitting my wrist was soothing. It was hepling me keep calm.
To think I wouldnt be in this mess if I just had a different life if I was a difderent person. If I didn't live here.
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Chapter 2
Looking over this house had me feeling at ease but I was still scared an I felt like I'd never be safe in my life again. My mother parked the car in the long drive way. She turned to see I was the only one awake.
"We're here everybody wake up." As soon as I heard her voice I felt safe. My mother voice always calmed me down even when I was younger her voice was the only thing that helped me skeep at night. "C'mone guys help with tne boxes we need to at least get the beds into the house."
She opened her car door knocking on the backdoor window an slamming the door waking my dad. My dad slept threw anything an everything he always seemed to take a nap everyday around 12:30 an still went to bed at 10:00 sharp. He was also a morning person he always woke up befor everyone In the house.
"Dude get off me!!" My sister Marcy glared over at my younger sister Hannah. "Stop pushing me!!" Was all I heard after I got out the car an after that my dad was yelling at the top of his lungs trying to get them to settle down.
I opened the door to the house with a box that said April's room on the side in red ink. I was holding my box tight against my chest while walking up the steps to my room. Counting the doors as I walked down the wide hall.
"One, two, three......four." I opened the door an looked around I had a bay window on the right side over looking the neighborhood a huge walk-in closet with a full length mirro covering the door. I took a deep breath setting my box down.
My baggy sweats an black California Republic shirt clung to my curves my long brown hair was in a sloppy top knot at the top of my head I could barely see myself threw my china bangs. I need to get a hair cut I thought to myself. I dusted of the crumbs of potato chips that I was eating in the car off my shirt when a loud booming voice came from down stairs echoing all across the empty house.
"April, Marcy!!! Girls hurry up lets get the beds in here!" My father yelled from down stairs.
"Youcan do this you can do this.......fuck I can't do this" I needed to breath. "I need to relax I need to calm down." I told my self I tried breathing in an out, but this room smelled like paint it was intoxicating so I opened the window an let the warm summer breeze hit my face. Then I closed my eye's an tried to calm my nerves. I tried to stop thinking.
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I sat in my room for a good thirty minutes befor walking down stairs my dad an I brought my bed stand an my bed up the stairs to my room. while everyone grabed boxes from the U-Hale truck outside. I had finished setting my bed up an started putting my books on the book shelf when Marcy came barging into my bed room waving her arms around like an octopus.
"Window now three hot guys window hurry!" She exclaimed while sitting in the window. An like she had said three really cute guys where walking past the house. One of them had a pair of red cargo shorts on with a black diamond's shirt on an brown long hair. While another tall boy that was bouncing a basketball up an down was wearing black basketball shorts with a regular red shirt on. The last guy hadd on baggy jeans whith redd hightops an a red diamond's shirt on he had short hair a bit shaggy here an there. I stoped looking at all the others an was just looking at him. My window was still opened from earlier that day an I could here what they were saying
"I told you they where cute!" she exclaimed
"Shhh listen." I kinda felt the need to listen in on there conversation.
"Ayee Jay, look some new kids are movin in to Cara's old house." the boy with the red cargos said to the kid with black basketball shorts on assuming his name is Jay.
"Wonder who they are." Jay replied.
They took a glance at the house an started talking about random bull shit. when the boy who had grabed my attention looked up into my window an we locked eye's for what seemed like eternity. He looked at me like he knew me an I stared back at him whith a confused look on my face. Then to my complete an utter shock he gave me a quick side smile an gave me a wink befor he turned away.
"Omfg did that just happened?" My sister looked at me with confusion, which I mimicked.
" Uh I dunno." Was all I could say befor I went back to putting my books back on my book shelf. I was juat going to ignore what just happened an get back to reality here which at the time was putting Go Ask Alice on my book shelf.
"So what? Your just gonna ignore the fact that that really cute guy just winked at you?" She said to me rather rude I might add.
Marcy was always rude although she claims that she's being polite at time an she is my sister but I just want to rip her throat out when she makes snide comments to me or any one else I the family. She is the cause of 99% of house fights an problem's but thats a whole other story.
"What am I supposed to do? He's a random ass stranger that winked at me I dont even know the guy!?" I said looking at her then turning my attention back to my books.
"Your so ignorant!" She replide coldly over her shoulder as she walked from my room.
"Yeah an your a bitch!" I whispered to myself.
