A Year To Remember

Chapter 5 " Disbelief "

Discord

"How's life been going on there man?" Truno messaged me.

"Nothing special other than this one girl i've been talking to lately."

"Damn man! A girl? Is she hot?"

"She's pretty cute."

"Dude, a Japanese as well? Damn you are one lucky son of a gun! I wish i was there to see her."

"But i want her all for myself LOL."

"You greedy mothertrucker hahaha, dude you totally need to send me a picture of her. That way i can tell if she's worth the effort."

"Sure, if i have the chance."

"Aight TTYL man i'm gonna go attend my nighttime course."

"Yeah man TTYL."

The discord chat ended.

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After i got invited to Mizushima's birthday, i got her LINE ID and we've been talking to each other almost everyday. I started to like her even more. As if i've fallen for her. I started caring for her. And by the way she talks to me online, she looks like she's feeling the same way. I'm not going to stay in Japan for very long, so i decided to try confessing my feelings to her. Hoping that if all goes well, i'm gonna have a reason to come back to Japan in the future.

The next day.

"Hey, we've been talking to each other a lot, and the truth is, i like you. I've always liked you from the moment our eyes met. From the moment i--"

"Cut! Come on! This is real life, there's no need to be all poetic and stuff like you see in dramas." Fubuki interrupted me.

"*Laugh* i know, i'm just so nervous because like, love confessing here and love confessing back in my country have so many differences." I said to him.

"Such as?" He asked me.

"Well, first of all, back in my country, you are obligated to know each other first before actually being lovers. Whilst in here, you don't even need to know each other. One will confess to the other and the other will choose to accept the confession or reject it. If the confession was accepted, they will learn to like each other as time passes by. And the confession methods are so diverse in here. But i guess i'm just going to use the classic one." I explained.

"Classic? Are you talking about taking her to the school backyard and confess your feelings there?" He asked me.

"I was thinking maybe the rooftop, like in animes." I said.

"What do you mean? Rooftops are off limits. We aren't allowed to go there.

"Wait what?

"*Laugh* Man, you've been watching too much anime!" He laughed his head off.

"S-shut up! How am i supposed to know that? I've never actually been there." I said with eyes rolled.

"I guess the school backyard thing is okay. That way no one is going to see you getting rejected." He joked.

"Are you even on my side?"

Later that day, i gathered all my courage and decided to confront Mizushima. After asking around where her classroom was, i found out that it's just 1 floor over my classroom. So i decided to go there.

"Is Mizushima-san here?" I asked one of the students that were in there.

"She's not here. I think i saw her going towards to school backyard. If i'm not mistaken." One of the students said.

"Ah, i see. Thanks for the information." I ran off.

After a jog, i managed to get to the school backyard only to see Mizushima kissing a guy. French kissing that is. I noticed that she hasn't noticed me yet.

"Mizu...shima...san.." I let out words of disbelief.

"Pa...Pambudi-kun!" She got surprised and pushed the guy away. "What are you doing here?" She asked me.

I stood still. Frozen. Mouth shut. I was drowning in disbelief.

"Hey! What a way to ruin the moment here! Go away!" The guy yelled.

"I..... I'm so sorry!" I ran away.

Filled in disbelief, heartbroken and not wanting to believe that this is not just a stupid dream, i ran away from that spot as fast as possible. I never thought a girl as kind as her would do such a thing. With a delinquent looking guy nonetheless.

Later in the evening.

"Fuck this! Fuck that! Fuck everything! I fucking hate myself!" I yelled to Fubuki on the phone.

"Well, you didn't do enough research. I didn't even know that she was dating a guy." He tried to calm me down.

"Who even is he??!? I don't recall ever seeing him at the birthday party."

"I don't know, maybe some guy she's been talking to for some time."

"I've also been talking to her! She always seems like she's into me by the way she messages me. This is such bullshit!" I punched the side of my drawer.

"Well whatever you just hit isn't going to be happy. Chill out man. It's not like she's the only girl in the entire world." He said.

"How am i supposed to chill out!? That guy was so... Ahhhhh fuck this!" I hung up the call and threw my phone at the wall.