I'm left all alone|| Monsta X /// Changki {1}

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Kihyun pov

I blinked my eyes rapidly to see a blurry image in front of me. Oh yeah i slept with Changkyun again. I was staring at his features again when god forbid me to continue. I had to pee. I shook the younger softly and earned a grumble from him. "Five more minutes" he whispered.

"Uhm i think i couldn't hold it longer than a minute Changkyun" i said and his eyes was shot open. He was obviously shocked and jumped back and his head banged against the thin walls. "Aghh" the younger growled and was trying to ease the pain by rubbing against it. "No time to explain. I have to pee!" and i rushed straight to the bathroom in the kitchen without sparing a glance at him.

After peeing i washed my hands and went to his room. Hmm weird, where is he? I was looking around to find him when i face palmed myself really loud until ny forehead was red. He's showering obviously. I shook my head violently and decided to lay back down on the bed with one of my arms behind my head.

I almost fell asleep when i heard a click from the bathroom door. I saw him came out wearing a shirt and a pants. "Oh you showered quite fast" i stated which make the latter stare at me while drying his hair with his towel. He giggled and threw his towel on the floor and sat on the bed making a mini wave.

"You should shower. You stink" the younger said covering his nose. I pushed him slightly and took a set of fresh towels and shirts from him. I went in the bathroom and clikced the lock button. I turned around frozen to see a razor and a few drops of blood in the sink.

Just now i checked he is cleaned? Where did this blood come from?

I was scratching my head when i decided to slide it past and continue to shower. After about 10 minutes of showering i got out and dried myself up to see Changkyun sleeping again. I giggled and shuffled my way to him. The sounds of the wooden floor acting against my feet gave me goosebumps, with the room being cold didn't help at all.

I sat down slowly and saw his shirt lifting up a little. I was about to cover it when i saw marks. Red long marks. I pulled his shirt up with force which made the younger flinched. "What is that?! What the fuck did i just saw?!" i stood up full of rage. "I-i can't e-explain hyung. I-" and i went out of the room without letting him finished.

My brow wrinkled with vexation and my nose was flaring. My fist convulsing with suppressed rage. Just as i was about to stomp out of the building to take a fresh air, i felt a tug on my hand and i was faced to him. "Hyung i can explain. Just listen" the brown haired looked down.

"What is there to explain? You're hurting yourself. And i told you i can help you. Don't you believe me?" Tears welled up in my eyes and began rolling like rivulets. "I... I was alone and scared again. I couldn't stop doing it. It's like cutting is my drug and i like it. I can't feel okay if i didn't cut at least a day" the brown haired looked down with guilt rushing against him.

I grabbed his jaws and make him face me. "Hyung i-" and i cut him off by kissing him. He didn't pushed me away. Instead he returned the kiss. I smiled in between the kiss and we pulled away gasping for air. "Wow" that was all i could say. The latter rubbed the back of his neck smiling to the ground. "I'm sorry. I-i didn't mean to do th-" the younger cut me off by giving me a peck on the lips.

"It was a great kiss. Don't worry" the brown haired smiled making me relieved. "If you have anything to share. I'm always here for you remember" i smiled patting his head as he nodded slowly. "Now let's treat those cuts before it gets infected and worse" i pulled him to the sofa and got up to take the first aid kit.

After taking care of his cuts, i leaned back to the sofa and stared at his features once again. Call me weird but i really like his dimples. Whenever he smiles, i just want to pinch his cheeks and keep on saying he was cute and not ugly. "Stop staring" the younger mumbled and i shook my head violently, hitting my head a few times.

"Sorry" i smiled sheepishly and stare into space. "Agh i'm so bored" the younger spoke up. "Then let's hang out with Monsta X" i say and his eyes were sparkling. "Yay!" he jumped up and down excitedly and ran to his room to change. I chuckled at his cuteness and put on my socks waiting for him.

I will never lose you.