The Book of Stories

i think i might be going insane

I think often about what you're doing and how you're feeling. 

I think often about what you think when I'm never there.

I think often about if you look at her lips and want kiss her like you did to me.

I think often about if she feels the same way I did. 

I think often about if you going for her is just my fault since I'm the one who is gone. 

I think often about when you've been  gone a while with no call, no text, no signal if you are thinking of me too.

I think often about whether or not I'm making a mistake.

I think often if I make myself feel these things for no reason.

I think often about if I'm just scared to lose you.

I keep checking my phone to see if you've called.

I keep listening to sad music

I keep thinking you're with her.

I keep replaying our conversation about her.

I keep remembering you wanted her at one point. 

I keep assuring myself that you love me. 

you love me

you love me

you love me

you love me...

right?