Trigger self harm, and trying to commit suicide
Y/n POV
It's that time of the year again. Back to school great. I've always hated going back to school since I have no friends and classified as a 'freak' and also with the 'popular people' bullying me. Especially Brendon Urie. Brendon Urie is one of the most popular people in our school and has every girl and some boys wrapped around his finger. I get snapped out of my thoughts with my mom screaming at me telling me to get out of the car. My mom and dad never loved me which doesn't help the fact that I'm even more alone. I get out the car and enter the gates of hell. When I go in I already see girls wearing basically nothing , freshmen looking really scared about there new school and a lot of different shit . I put in my ear buds and start to head to my locker. On the way there someone pulls the back of my hoodie, as I turn around I see the one and only Brendon Urie.
"What do you want!?" I sneered
"whoa easy there freak I wouldn't be talking like that to your superiors" I roll my eyes at his comment.
"I don't care who you are as long as you get out of my fucking face"
"Okay fiesty we'll leave we just had to give you a gift" Brendon says as he drops ten razors. By this point I wanted to cry. Brendon and I use to be good friends back in middle school. I told him everything from my parents abusing me to telling him I self harmed , but there was one thing I never told him and that was I was completely in love with him. But right now looking at the razors he gave me completely broke me . He clearly didn't care about me if he dropped these triggering object right in front of me. By this point I know what I want to do and that's die. It clear that no one will miss me. I quickly go to my locker to get something and that's a picture. I loved this picture with all my heart it was a picture of me Brendon and big brother Ryan . Ryan and I never fought when we grew up everything was perfect until he got into a car crash . My parents blamed everything on me which made me feel low. I take the picture into my hand and go on my way home.
Time skip to home
Once I get home I quickly make sure that my mom or dad was here which they weren't . I quickly go to the bathroom and get my only friend who has been through everything with me and that was my razor.
"Hey friend I've decided that I don't want to be here anymore will you do me the honors of helping me?" I ask the razor as if will talk back.
One for being ugly
Two for being worthless
Three for being a 'freak'
And four for being a mistake. I keep doing this over and over until the whole bathroom looks like a murder scene
"I'll will be with you soon Ryan...soon" after I say that the whole room turns black .
Brendon's POV
I felt so bad when I did this. The way y/n looked at me like she was disgusted in what I turned into. To be honest me too. I left her for granted and hanged out with fake people. It broke my heart everyday when I bullied her just so I wouldn't be bullied. I look around and see no sign of her during first period
"Hey Spencer where's the freak" I cringe at myself just saying that
"Don't know bro maybe she actually went to kill herself this time" he chuckled while I turned pale
"Oh no" I mumble
"I gotta go Spencer bye" I say while I quickly get out class and get into my car and start driving to her house. Once I reach her house I see the door partly open.
"Please don't be dead please don't be dead" I mumble
"Y/n y/n where are you please I'm sorry for all I have done too you these past three years" I say about to cry. Then I reach the bathroom . I pull on the door knob. Just as the door opens I see the bathroom . There where so many things you can say this bathroom looked like for example 'messy', 'disturbing', 'bloody' and for me the worst 'lifeless' I quickly go to y/n body is had a very weak pulse
"Crap" I quickly get my phone out and call 911
"Hello what my your emergency be"
"Um in (enter your street and address) there is a lady who tried to commit suicide"
"Okay sir we will be there shortly stay calm"
"Okay" with that I turn of the phone and hold y/n so close to me not caring that the blood will transfer into my clothes. I look around the bathroom and see the picture me Ryan and y/n took the day we were all going to a concert good memories. A few minutes later the ambulance comes and takes y/n . I start to go with them until one of the EMTs said
"I'm sorry sir you can come unless your family"
"Well I'm her boyfriend" I say hopeful that he would buy it. He nodded and let me sit in the back with her. I held her hand the entire time . When we got to the hospital the doctors said I couldn't come in . I sat in the chair and took out the picture . I miss the old her the one who was always happy not the one who I manage to brake even more after her brother died.
"Mr Urie I have news" the doctor said
"What is it "
"Well your girlfriend manage to live but she is in a coma" I nodded and said
"Can I see her"
"Yes " I thank him and go into her room. When I go in there she was on the hospital bed her body pale lifeless,but still manage to look beautiful. This was all my fault if never left her this would of never happened and maybe she would be my girlfriend.
Time skip to a month
Y/n POV
Everything is dark . There's no one with me here. Sometime I see this light this time I want to catch it and leave this emptiness . With all my force I go to the jump light. I open my eyes to see my brother Ryan .
"Ryan its you?!" I say crying
"Don't cry y/n I'm here and I need to tell you something"
"Okay what is it Ry?"
"You need to go back"
"No please I don't want to go back no one wants me there everyone calls me freak even Brendon"
"I know y/n but trust me the someone does care about you" with that Ryan switches the scene and there I am in a hospital bed lying lifeless with Brendon crying and saying how sorry he was.
"Oh my god ....he cares" I say smiling
"Exactly y/n go to him and remember I will always be there for you even if you can't see me. With that he was gone and I'm slowly start to see the hospital room. I groan as my eyes see the light
"Y/n?!" Brendon says as he quickly goes gets the nurses . After the nurses are done I'm sitting up.
"Y/n I'm so sorry of how I've been treating you I totally understand if you never forgive me" Brendon says starting to cry in his hands
"Brendon I forgive you" Brendon slowly lifts his head from his hands
"You do why?"
"Because someone talked to me and I can see how much you miss me friends?" I say hopeful
"No" Brendon says . My heart breaks a little
"No because y/n I want to be more than friends" I smile at him and hold his hands and kiss him before saying
"Of course my bully"
