Success to me comes in all form i.e places, persons, things, feelings, emotions .
The purest and my most favorite is the success of attaining inner peace. When I am happy with the way i do things, the way i talk, the way i feel certain emotions. When my inner self has made peace with the outer me. Where the destruction of outside, has not affected the gladness of inside. When someone else's beauty doesn't make me feel ugly. Where i am happy to hang myself with chaos and the solution of coming out of chaos leads me to another new discovery of myself . When someone else's opinion, choice, way doesn't bother me. When I am me. The "me" that is hard to find at such tender age, where everyone wants to hide their identity ,where everyone forces you to change, where you have no option but to CHANGE.
We finally lose and they win, WE CHANGE. Trying to love our new self but only we know how hard it is to love yourself as someone you are pretending to be. To behave like the new self is even more tougher than making peace with your old inner self and then because it's hard to ourselves, we start loving another person, thing or place. It's a pleasant scene, again. We get so engrossed in that person, thing or place because we know we've failed to get engrossed in ourselves. We get addicted .
But when that person, place or things leaves we are broken, hurt, angry, full of regrets, the things we would have done and things we shouldn't have done.
When this happens, we realize the only person we have is us, the only thing we have is ourselves and only place we have is where we are. That's when the love for that someone or something has been replaced with the passion to love ourselves . We begin to spend time with ourselves. Knowing the lonely self, the sad self, the weaker self.
The unknown emotion that we feel that time is the exact thing we needed to love ourselves at first, to value ourselves at first and to be our own partner at first.
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This is a cycle, it goes on. We love, we get hurt, we try to move on, we discover new strengths, we again love, we get hurt......
But the self recovery leads you to many self discoveries.
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