Bad Boy With Love (Zarry)

Chapter 85

Harry (POV)

As i stood in front of my door looking down at zayn who was on one knee holding up bright red roses, wearing a nice black suit with a white tie, hair well done as his eye was being covered with an eye patch, i bit my lip looking down at the man who was taking a deep breath while his eye was suddenly closing than reopening again to speak. 

''Harold Edward Styles i'm here to tell you how i feel and what i'm feeling right now, i've been so depressed ever since leaving that damn appointment. I've cried myself to sleep every night thinking about how i lost you for good, i would tell myself to run back to you and sweep you off your feet while acting as if i was your knight and shining armor. Harry i need you in my life but you don't understand how much i've messed up...Actually you do but you have no idea how much i need you so fucking bad. I want you to be happy but only happy with me and no one else baby. I need you in my life as if you need air to breath, a brain to think, a heart to love, and of course that one person to make you happy which is you.''

I started tearing up as he spoke to me with so much love, i bit my lip wanting to hold back the sobs that wanted to come out.

''Harry please give me this chance into actually being with me and if i mess up just once than you can leave me for good and never come back.''

I looked up while biting down on his bottom lip, i bet his knee is really hurting him now. 

''Zayn everything you just said was so sweet, you make my heart skip a beat every time i talk to you or even see you. I love you so much that i could never leave your side without you even telling me to, you need to know that i'm doing this because i don't want you to get the thought about me always taking you back.''

I crouched down in front of him while cupping his cheeks but not before taking the roses that he was squeezing a bit to tight out of his hands and placing them on the side table that was holding a picture frame of Gemma and i. 

''I've waited a whole five months just to give you time to breath harry, i mean...I know i left you but i'm willing to do anything and i mean ANYTHING in this world to win you back.''

I choked on the air i was breathing on looking into that innocent looking eye, i can't just reject him not after all he's been through. I know i've been through so much lately but for some reason he seems so lost and sick.

''Harry please if you forgive me, please let me be your fiance and act as if nothing happened. I know that i hurt you so fucking much but i'm already trying my hardest to have this work out.''

He let his tears fall as he gripped my hands that were placed on his stubby cheeks. 

''Zayn please come inside, it's chilly out and i don't want you getting sick. Well you kind of look sick already but i just want to make sure your warm.''

As i helped him off his knee and into the house that i call my home, i watched as he sat on the couch putting his head in his hands crying softly.

''Why are you crying?''

I sat next to him wrapping my arm around his cold shoulder. 

''Because i messed up so fucking much that i know for a fact that you might not want to marry me or whatever it is that runs through your mind.''

I looked down at my lap, does he really want to marry me this time? Like is he saying that? I squeezed my eyes while shaking my head. 

''Zayn i don't want to get married anymore, you're always bringing my hopes up then breaking them back down when our best day is suppose to be up.''