Life of an Indian failure{completed}

Life Of An Indian Failure

Important a/n in the end...

I couldn't breathe , my legs were shaking..

F A I L, the letters kept flashing in my head.. What was I supposed to do now? Which college would accept me? There was no amount of money that could be paid to solve this! I had nothing in my life, no friends, no family.. And now? I didn't have a future..

My mother had her head buried in her hands, and I heard her sniffle, I looked at her, and I went beside her,

"Mom... Mum?", I called out,

"Go away Alia",

"Mummy come on",

"What to you want me to say?",

"I don't know! Mom!",

"How could you Alia? I had so many expectations, this was going to be the only thing in my life I looked forward to!",

"Mom? How can you say that? Do you realise the situations I was put in?",

"I don't care! What the hell are you going to do with your life!?",

"Stop it mummy, stop it",

"Get out", my mom whispered

"What?",

"Get. Out",

"Mom?",

"I don't care where you go, just get out of the house",

I looked down from the window.

"This is gonna be enough",

I think to myself, as I attempt to grab the sides of the window, and attempt to climb it.

I sit on the window sill with my legs facing outside. Everything looked so tiny from up here, the cars, the buses, the stray dogs.. Even the humans.

Tears were streaming down my face, and I just kept running, I didn't know where, my head was banging, and I couldn't stop crying, my own mother didn't want me, I didn't have anyone in my life. I didn't even have a future.

I ran to an old, unfinished, abandoned building, And ran up the stairs..

I stand on top of the sill, and take a moment to myself. My life wasn't supposed to end here! I wasn't supposed to fall in love, or get distracted! I wasn't supposed to fail my 10th! Why me then? Why!?

I feel like crying, a tear escapes my eyes and I look to the ground. I stand up and take a deep breath, "It's time to let go", I think to myself.

I just kept running, I just never got tired, I ran and ran up those stairs, I had no idea where to go, so I continued running..

My cold fingers slowly let go of the edge, and I close my eyes. I feel myself being pulled.

All of a sudden, my brother's image flashes in my mind, I jerk open my eyes and my hands desperately search for something to grab onto.

I thought about my friends, and I thought about my family, and then I thought about Arnav, how horribly I wanted someone, but I had no one, when I needed somebody so badly, no one was there...

I finally finished running, and I had reached the tenth floor of that unfinished building. It was a huge, and it had a window, just one window.. A window which seemed like a gateway to me, a gateway to where? A gateway that takes me away from my problems, forever.

I find the edge and I hold on to it.
My brother! How could I have not thought about him? He was my world, and I was his. What kind of an elder sister would I be, if this was the kind of examples I set? And with him, critical in the hospital, what would my parents go through? No, I can't do his, I just can't.

I sit on the sill and I attempt to turn around to face the inside, but my foot gets stuck, I struggle to remove it, but I couldn't.

I try one last time, to pull it out, but I trip, and I feel myself fall out slowly, while my hands desperately search for anything I could grab. But I couldn't find anything.

I went closer, closer to my gateway, the closer I went to the window, the further my problems went, I liked that feeling.. That feeling, something I can't explain, the happiness.. I liked it.. I wanted to feel like that forever.. Forever..

My breathing hardened, and I fall, maybe to my death.

"I'm sorry Sid", I say, before I close my eyes, maybe forever..

Incase, you didn't get it... The italics represent the past... And the normal font reps the present... I'm so sorry, if I made you re read the chapter^.~

Thanks for reading, and I'm sorry for the late update, but I have my exams coming up, and I legit have no time to upload a chapter, but.... I will try<3..

Love,
~Harshini